Saturday, December 31, 2005

oh its new year's eve! 2005's gonna be over soon.. how has it been for you? i guess... its always good to do some reflection.. so go ahead.. you have 10 min to do. haha..





well. for me..eh. i dun think i grew much. physically (my weight has been hovering at 39-40 since forever) and hmmm mebbe mentally as well.. ok lar sure got some growth but its slow loh.. no big jump tat kind of thing. i learnt more about myself, definitely.. learnt more about my frens, learnt more about the options in life available to me.

and as for achievements, academic wise, altho i still havent gotten good grades, i finally cleared everything in one sem again as mentioned in one of my prev posts. hobby wise, i also finally got a trophy..

relationships wise.. well. was kinda entangled in a not so good one, which i shortly got out of again, heh. subsequently met new frens.. and sad to say i htink i hurt one of them deeply. as for old frens, drifted apart from some of them, but also got to noe some other frens better. hmmm ok.. me beign the greedy person tat i am, i will try to catch back the old ones. at least, i'll try within my capabilities.. i cant really change my fren's working hours. heh.

and.. i also think i got closer to Him.. juz a bit closer.. but.. im happy enough =) my growth is slow, but steady ma.

as for beauty wise. dark circles got darker!!!! sobz. i have implemented a beauty project (htink i mentinoed in this blog before) which is to slp early, but i only managed to abide by it for like 1 week. haiz. and i think i wont buy olay's facial foam again.. it gave me pimples on my forehead! bioessence is not bad..galenic is also ok.. but i think they're not suitable for oily skin.

hmmmm ok.. i htink tats all the reflection i've got to do on 2005 for today.. mebbe wil add when i have more.


hmmm i wonder how my birthday will be like this year.. come to think of it, its been one year since my last bday.. so fast.. i can still rem taht day. hmmm.
i suspect the seat in front of my comp has got a magnet hwich attracts the human butt hidden inside the cushions. cuz i dun think my butt is tat heavy.. i'm only 40 kg..

awwwwww........ =p

Thursday, December 22, 2005

as we get to know more of a person, we can either find more joy in him, or find him less attractive. i guess this is the way of life, but then, i still find it a pity when i realise certain hopes are never gonna be realised becuz of the changed impression. and sometimes when this happens, i wld just wish that my impression of him wld stay the way it was before everyhting happened.



*this entry is a general observation of myself and not referrign to any particular person or event.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

my results were out today. finally, after 4 sems since yr 1 sem 2, i passed all my subjects. this shld be great news, especially since i really expected to fail about 5 out of 7 subjects. however, this is not the case. i am feelign qte sian now actually, about my results.

y is this so leh?

firstly, my grades are below average. the average results, for the average mae student, is 1 or 2 A, qte a few Bs, 1 or 2 Cs. but for me, its a 1 B, 4 Cs, 2 Ds.

secondly, recently i have begun to have some interest in working as an industrial designer (for the uninitiated, it means someone who designs products, industrial and otherwise). i know i cant depend on my overall results to get the job i want, as my uni grades are really quite terrible. i was hoping instead to use my industrial design module to appeal to my prospective employers. thus i have begun to shift my focus from completing my studies within 4 years, to attaining an impressive grade for my industrial design module. however, i got D(+) for my industrial design module. tell me, which company wld hire someone with D(+) for industrial design as an industrial designer???

so ok, i tell myself, its alright, mebbe i'll get a masters in industrial design, and get some decent grades from there (i believe i got D+ not cuz of my designing incapabilities, but more of my inability to manage my time. this is becuz i only had time to do half my ID paper, and i'm qte confident that if only the half tat i did was examinable, i'd have scored at least a B). however, given my present grades, i wont have even the basic requirements to enter the masters course. sighz.

ya. so basically the reason y i'm unhappy despite passing every subject (and thus ensuring that i need not squeeze more subjects into my final sem) is cuz 1. my grades are below average 2. my dream of being an industrial designer is almostly certainly squashed.

there's actually more to point 1 than juz a below avg grade. wat i'm saying is, its not so bad if i were in my first sem of uni. if tats the case, i can encourage myself by saying tat i'm juz not accustomed to uni life, and i can bounce back to being in the top 20% of the cohort next sem. however, the truth is, this is already my 2nd last sem in uni. 3.5 years, and i still havent mastered teh art of doing well in uni. i'm not even the average. i'm in fact BELOW average, in terms of grades. and come to htink of it, mebbe everything else. heh.

ok, you may say, grades is not everythign. but to those who dun really intend to start their own business, it matters qte a bit. bleah...

ok lar mebbe i was juz being pessimistic. mebbe there are other good things about my results, juz tat i focus more on the bad ones. mebbe i shld try finding more positive aspects of my results, and focus my tots more on them.

and actually anw so wat if nothing good (except tat i passed everyhting) can be said about my results? as my msn nick says "there are many regrets in life. wat matters is how we deal with them" the important thing now is not to fault anyone or lament the unfavourable circumstance, for afterall everyhting is past and there's no use crying over spilt milk. wats important now, following the analogy of the spilt milk, is to find a mop and mop the floor clean. and now, in the case of my disappointing results, is to figure out wat to do next.

so i guess.. there's nothing i can do but to learn from my mistakes loh.. and hope to make the best of next sem.

the first thing i muz learn is to re-acquire, and perform all my exam techniques. ok i never really did adhere strictly to the rules that muz be adhered to before you can be qualified to be exam smart (eg limiting urself to spending only the allocated time on each question and nothing more, doing the questions which you feel more comfortable first, etc etc) but after i came to uni, it was worse. for eg, instead of exceeding the allocated time by 5 mins, now im' exceeding by 15. and instead of attempting every question even when you're not sure of the answer (so that if it turns out correct you get some marks), i'll juz leave the question blank. how silly can tat be.

and the 2nd thing i muz learn is.. oops i havnet figured out wat other things i muz learn. heh.

ehhh. i think i'll let myself come up with the answer slowly.. i usually take my time to generate ideas.. mei2 ban4 fa3, i am tat slow a worker. heh.

its late.. i shld be putting in more effort in my beauty project. which is to slp early so i can get rid of my eye circles.. haha.

nitez everyone! wishing everyone a happy day tmr~

Monday, December 12, 2005

i'm looking forward to tomorrow.. (or rather, later) i pray that it'll be good.
anw, somehow i realise recently i can tolerate less and less of dumb guys.

i mean, not to say i'm smart or wat, but somethings are obvious wat. like if my msn nick says "exams ended, but with a pffffffttttttt...", it means i juz ended my exams on a not so wonderful note right? need you go and rub it in by saying "hey, so you very happy now right? exams over liao". im' like.. speechless... and really irritated. (wanted to say d*mn irritated but decided not to be so vulgar on my blog)

and its not as if its juz once.. i dun understand y.. but this guy often irritates me with his constant inability to understand the situation i am in altho it wld have been pretty obvious to me. besides the above eg, he wld also ask me out very often despite me telling him (many times) tat i was busy with projects and so cannot afford to come out to town for entertainment. i was so busy tat everytime i got home from school it'd be 12am. and even after my projects were done, he cldnt understand tat i was really pressed for time to study for the exams. again, he kept on asking me out, as if i only needed to take 2 papers which wld last only 3 days (incidently, tat kind of "luxury" is only for the masters students, heh), when in actual fact, i had to deal with 7 papers spread out over 12 days, the last 3 papers compressed into 2 days.

its like, i already have a lot of difficulty handling my workload, can you dun add on to my troubles by giving me all these irritation??? goodness.

ok sorry guys, i think this is the 2nd time some of you are hearing this, if so juz bear w me ya. heh and ya i noe the egs i raised up are the same but really i cldnt be bothered to go and rem other more irritating incidents liao.


hmmmm ok i think i shld be less harsh. for after all, wat goes ard comes ard. ehh. ok i guess i shld be more understanding. ok me and this guy are of different frequency tats all. then i cannot fault him liao. shrug. ehh but i htink i really need more grace to be able to tolerate him...

Father, please forgive me for my sins.. take away my anger, fill me with wisdom and love..so tat i may love my neighbours, like You love me. in the name of Jesus Christ i pray, amen.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

great. i'm in a depressive mood again. mebbe its got to do with the music i'm listening to, but then, its supposed to be soothing leh. its jim brickman, goodness.

its actually kinda irritating, this nature of mine: to be depressive when htere's nothing to be happy about. i mean, if there's nothing to be happy about, hten juz dun be happy, dun be sad, right? but no!! i muz create trouble for myself and feel depressive about everything.

i notice that usually, when there is sthg to be happy about, i'l focus on tat happy issue and juz be happy happy. and be chirpy and bubbly throughout. but when there's NOTHING to be happy about, my focuz will be on other issues, and being teh gal with the low self-esteem, i will tend to cast everything about myself in a negative light. like, "oh, i dance so lousily, so low class", "oh, my dance costume is so kiddy", "oh, my fyp is like chicken feed but i'm still finding difficulty in handling it. i'm so incapable", "my relationship skills sux" and "i'm really lousy at giving comfort to pp" and etc etc etc..haiz.

it doesnt help that it seems to be yet another season of change. i rem i posted sthg along the lines of everythign seems to be changing.. again it seems to be the case now. i have accepted that things are never gg back the way before in dance, but now, my rships with my closer frens are not spared. i realise this all the more so while reading someone's blog, i suddenly feel so distant from her.. actually the distance has been growing since qte some time ago.. but we have been putting in efforts to meet up and all tat, so its not so bad. but now..everyone has grown so much.. except me. i'm still the lil gal.. taking forever to grow up.

seriously many a times i'd think back to my younger days, and wonder how i have changed, or grown. definitely there is some changes and maturity attained.. but still i feel like a lil child compared to all my frens.. and i dun like it loh. i jzu dun like to feel stupid or incapable, altho tat is wat i feel most of the times. heh. mebbe tats y i'm such an unhappy lil gal.

haiz. and the thing is, the more i feel unhappy, the worse i feel. its like a cycle.. i will feel unhappy about the fact that i'm unhappy..cuz i believe no one loves a grumpy gal. so as long as there is sthg making me unhappy, i'll be unhappy for a long time.. until sthg happy happens and takes my attn away. erm does it make sense??

Father, please take away the void in my soul.. and fill me with joy. that i may be salt and light to this earth, that i may bless those around me becuz of You. help me to look towards You, juz like the sunflower looks to the sun. in the name of Jesus, amen.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

You Are A: Duckling!

DucklingThe cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence.

You were almost a: Frog or a Chipmunk
You are least like a: Monkey or a PuppyWhat Cute Animal Are You?

Thursday, November 17, 2005

music of the moment: starry night

hmmm i seem to be a lil deaf in my left ear...(to heisuke: no its not cuz i drop too much hair.....) seems like its slightly swollen on the inside too..

if it doesnt get better by the end of exams.. im' gonna see the doc liao.....
music of the moment: starry night

surprise!! i've put music on the blog again.. does it sound familiar to you???

tats the best quality i (or rather heisuke) can come up with.. sorry if it made you cringe or anything.. if it does.. feedback to me ok?? will see the response and decide if i wanna take it down.. hee.

credits to heisuke this time!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

my dance partner has a good voice. has potential to become a successful singer. juz tat he lacks training and occasionally goes terribly off key. haha.

i strongly encourage him to go for singing lessons and thus stretch his potential. who noes, he may juz be discovered at the music school and be dragged to the recording studio to record an album which will sell to platinum status. haha.

even if sadly, he isnt discovered at the music school, he can still take part in the next season of the singing competition: project superstar. and then, based on the superb singing skills he has honed in teh school, he can win the votes of many fans and thus become kelvin tan's successor. and yes, i'll vote for you, dun worry. haha.

hmmmm but then, if he pursues his singing career, he'll give up his potentially equally illustrious dancing career. and i'll be left without a dance partner again!! so cannot cannot. i take back all my encouragements haha.

happy or not?? i blogged one whole entry about you.. haha. better be nice to me and dance well w me ok!!

Friday, November 11, 2005

am i gonna stay another sem in NTU????? i really hope not!! yesterday's paper was really easy.. but i didnt noe how to do, and i think i was too panicky to htink of flipping through the notes even tho it was an open-book exam. so.. in the end, i was only confident of 1.5 question. hmmmm the last time i only knew how to do one question, i failed teh paper.. mebbe this time i'll get a D??? *cross fingers* if i fail this paper, it means i'll have to take 8 papers next sem.. and i seriously dun think i can pass 8 papers at one go (i have taken 8 papers before so i know how it like.. and i din pass them all loh). and hwich means, i'll have to stay another sem in NTU to retake teh modules which i failed......

sobz. but its ok, cuz i know watever happens, He'll pull me through.. i muz have faith in Him!


and i really hope i havent sprained my foot again. i did blog about spraining my foot last time, and now my foot seems to be feeling the same as then, but not as serious. again, have no idea why i sprained my foot this time. hmmmm hope it recovers soon, i dun wanna blow my $60 goodbye to the chiropractioner!!

ya.. i'm short of money nowadays.. i've been spending ALOT on dance lately.. lets see..
120 on latin technique,
195 (including the ones which i'll be taking after my exams) on private lessons with sharon,
200 on new costume (which i'm really excited about.. mebbe will talk more about tat when im more free, hehe),
and now i'm thinking of whether to buy this pair of dance shoes hwich is gonna cost about 270 in total.. goodness.
including the dance shoes, my expenditure wld amount to a grand total of 785.. which is only 115 short of the 900 i estimated for my hongkong trip. and to think i opted not to go hongkong so as to save money. alot of money i saved eh. heh.

ok one happy thing to blog about today: the water supply in my house is finally repaired!! err as in, its pressurized.. cuz previously the water pressure was really low.. such that there can only be one tap open fully at any one time. so.. which means.. if i'm bathing, and this person turns on the tap in another part of the house, my water supply will suddenly be cut off. and seriously its not a nice feeling standing in the shower, naked, wet, cold (cuz of evaporation of the water) and all soaped up for like 3 mins juz waiting for the water supply to return. and of cuz if i'm rushing for time (which i always do) i'll be really irritated about the time wasted when the water supply's cut off. and becuz i dun really like my neighbours to hear my family shout at each other (jia1 chou3 bu4 ke3 wai4 yang2)(you noe how ur neighbours can hear you if you're shouting in the toilet), i usually refrain from yelling at the other water user to stop using wtaer, and so i end up having to tolerate this kind of inconvenience everytime time i bathe. but!! now no more!!! haha......

yup htink i'm gonna bathe now, even tho my grandpa's using the other bathroom at the same time. previously i'd wait until he comes out, but now i dun have to!

and oh, quote from a fren's msn nick: "the only place where SUCCESS comes before WORK is in the dictionary!" haha. looks like i better stop blogging now . actually wanted to juz write teh first 2 sentences in this entry today, but i was getting sick of reading super short entries everytime i check on my blog. heh. so decided to juz waste abit of time and write a longer entry today, like wat i did more in the past. hmmmm come to think of it, strangely i've been reminscing about the past (not hte unhappy ones tho, thank goodness) these few days.. i even asked my mom to cook crabs for me on my birthday, cuz i missed the times when she cooked crabs for dinner.. hmmmmmmmm....

ok i shld really stop being complacent about the amount of time i have for studying and really go off now.. ciao and all the best for all ur papers! lets all jiayou together~~

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

the last time i had any ounce of hope of getting an A for my exams was qte a long time ago.. in fact, its exactly 4 years ago.. which is also about the amount of time that i've spent in NTU.

bleah.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

haiz. i seriously tink i shldnt let my confusions upset pp anymore. i have thus decided to be firm.. and to be cruel.. i feel that sometimes to be kind, we have to be cruel first.. and this time, it is teh same.

so all i can say is.. He will give us strength to pull through this ok.. juz rely on Him..

i guess the timing is a bit lousy, but i was afraid if i drag on, absence will make hte heart grow fonder.. and things will be worse then.

do take care..........

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

*suffocated*

*breathless*

*irritated*

*pissed*

*dunno wat's happening*

arrrrghhh
this song was written by a fren of the singer after losing 2 loved ones in teh span of 48 hours.. expresses our hope in the Lord when we go through tormentous times..
let us all be reminded that altho our nightmares are not taken away from us, He is there holding us when we're suffering...

"This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held."

click here to listen to the song and read the lyrics at the same time..

held
artiste: natalie grant
lyrics by crystal wells


Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.


This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.


Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

ok tats it. my new target is a purple dress . haha.......

Friday, October 21, 2005

i wish for my boyfriend to accompany me...

if he doesnt want to do tat.. then he gets the boot. sorry dude.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

hey hey.. my fren's doing a survey.. help me out ya??


sexual awareness survey

juz one click... and you'll get to it liao.. okok??? heee..

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

pp have bad hair days.. but i have bad eyes days as well!!! sobz
shucks. i dunno y i keep wasting time on blog quizzes nowadays.. heh
Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"



hmmmmm the last 2 is true.. haha. dunno about the 3rd tho.. dun really think so leh.. haha.
How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.



hmmmmm..............
Veggie Pizza

Upscale and trendy.
You're the most likely to go for a gourmet pizza.
You have impeccable taste in everything.
You truly enjoy the finer things in life.


veggie pizza???? errrr i like to eat some meat as well...
Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.
At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.
And while you like attention, you value your privacy.
You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.


wow really true leh!! except the last point.. i do appreciate comments.. *hint hint*.. haha.
i've been looking for a pair of black swarovski earrings, and today while i was looking out for them, i found some other really nice ones!! a pity they all cost at least $8.. its my rule not to buy earrings that cost more than $6, and i've ald broken it once. (i have another pair of earrings that cost me most than $6, in fact more than $20 - and its really not worth it - but tat was before i set the rule) i dun wanna break it too many times!!

sighz, y izzit that i always take a fancy to accessories that cost more than wat i'm willing to pay for.. i juz have to blame my good taste and reluctance to spend much i guess.. hahaha..

Friday, September 23, 2005

i need vitamin M... M for money..

i need it to buy a new comp, one which will allow me to run at least: 3 msn windows, one windows media player, 5 internet explorer window, 3 ms office applications (or 1 ansys program), 1 adobe reader and 1 photoshop starter edition ALL at the same time w/out losing its speed.

i need it for dance: for the latin technique that i'm stubbornly signing up for, and for the comign competition in hongkong, which including standard travel expenditures like airfare, accommodation, shopping, suitable clothing, etc etc wld amt to S$900.

i also need it to start investments..


haiz. i guess one solution wld be to find a bf who is rich, AND dun mind spending on his gf.. heh heh. however, a bf who is rich OR is willign to spend on gf is ald v hard to find, let alone rich AND willing. or have i missed out on anyone?? feel free to volunteer yourselves k.. hahahaa. juz joking..

another solution is to work.. but then 1. i'm lei zee gal.. 2. i dun have time to work even if i'm willing to.

3rd solution is to save, save and save but then again, i doubt i'd be able to save enough for my hk trip, dance class and new comp by december, which is when the hk trip is.

and of cuz, i can always go rob, cheat, steal. but nah.. tats too little a challenge for me. hahaha. ok jk once again.

so how so how?? no solutions.. any innovative brains out there to help me htink of fast money milking ventures???

haha ok the attachment is finally~ uploaded to my yahoo mail. so slow. shld go slp le.. nitez everyone.

(oh but i'm serious about needign vitamin M k. anyone charitable or innovative enough can contact me at 8xxx 2xxx - all of you have my number. haha.

oh well. bleah)

Friday, September 16, 2005

oooh... here's another deluge of blog quizzes... haha.. and its 4.40AM now.... haha think im' gettign more and more hopeless each day... bleah..
How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.


watever.. too tired to analyse whether it describes me accurately or not now.. haha.. ok htink i'll go zzz...
You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.



wow!! and tot i behaved less maturely than my age.. hahahaa....
Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person.
But when you don't get your way, watch out.
Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want.
Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.


haha sad to say.. its slightly true.. juz tat lil bit. haha.

but on a serious note.. its only true for the first 2 lines.. no matter how much i scream or shout, i also dun get i want.. haha.
Your Kissing Purity Score: 77% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed

But the kisses you've given are very missed


haha...... crap. ok la half true. not saying which half tho. haha! =P
ok i did another (silly) test.. its about hidden talents and i was supposed to do some choosing.. but cldnt decide between 2 choices and so i decided to choose both of them, one after another and see wat results each of the choices bring.. here's the first (but not preferred choice) i made:

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.


and my reaction is: "are you sure???!!"

then teh 2nd:

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.
You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.
Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.
As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.


haha equally bad results for the 2nd choice. dun really think its true leh.. haha. not much confidence.. the only major time that my ideas seemed good was recently, when my proj mates (tehre were 10 pp in the group) took my idea as to which topic to do for our proj (no the topics were not from a list.. we had to think of it ourselves). but even then, i'm not really confident of this idea myself.. haha. (teh project was about coming up with a business opportunity in/about inner mongolia, and i proposed setting up a mongolian theme park with yurts as resorts in singapore. crap right. heh)

What's Your Hidden Talent?
You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...


gooosh~~ French is indeed my favourite language to learn now~~ wow! looks like i really like french alot huh.. din noe tat myself.. haha.
试音1, 2, 3。

试音3,2,1。

Monday, September 12, 2005

now, i'm no believer of horoscopes, but this fashion horoscope from ivillage is interesting and kinda describes my fashion style:

Capricorn

The Goat is more comfortable in business suits than sweats, and no-nonsense heels than sandals. You are reasonable enough to want the best, but not to expect to get it on your frugal budget. There's no snob in your nature to stop you from going straight for the bargain rack and looking for the best the sales stickers have to offer. All your clothing is practical. It may not be the latest cut, but it still looks good enough to let your business associates know that you're serious about your career. If the price is right, you'll go so far as to get your clothing tailored, as long as it retains its classic, timeless style. For relaxation, you might wear pedal pushers, and leg warmers are a must at the gym. You may hunt for bargains, but you dress for success.

What you save on clothes, you splurge on accessories. Your jewelry is simple, but expensive. You can be classy without being gaudy, and an amethyst here or there never harmed anyone. Other than that, earthy you prefers browns, beiges and khaki. Your hair is not a big issue, as long as it's short, attractive and can be styled in less than five minutes. Combining adornment with use, Capricorn was one of the first to wear calculator watches, though pagers and cell phones are now the chief adornment to your pockets or purses.
Fave Label: Donna Karan
Would Look Good On: Christy Turlington


ya find that its qte descriptive in that qte a few statements are true:

1. You are reasonable enough to want the best, but not to expect to get it on your frugal budget.
2. There's no snob in your nature to stop you from going straight for the bargain rack and looking for the best the sales stickers have to offer.
3. All your clothing is practical. It may not be the latest cut, but it still looks good enough
4. You may hunt for bargains, but you dress for success.
hehe tats teh phashion philosophy i adopt.
5.Your jewelry is simple, but expensive. You can be classy without being gaudy.
yup i prefer to spend on quality, not quantity.
6.Your hair is not a big issue, as long as it's short, attractive and can be styled in less than five minutes.
(not the short part tho, for now, i still think i look better with long hair)
7.Combining adornment with use,...cell phones are now the chief adornment to your pockets or purses.
yup i prefer to multifunctional phones


and only the following is false or not really proven true yet:

1. What you save on clothes, you splurge on accessories. Your jewelry is simple, but expensive. --eh well. i dun really have a habit of accessorizing myself. cuz well i dun really have much money to buy them. but true la i can imagine if i were to spend money on jewellery, i'll spend it on quality, and not quantity.
2. Other than that, earthy you prefers browns, beiges and khaki. hmmm i juz learned that i'm a cool tone person leh!! and i dun like browns.. i like romantic colours like purple, pink, or bold colours..

so ya loh.. 5 to 2. overwhelming majority of the statements in the above paragraphs describes me.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

look at this!!




in case you've been living in some mountains, apple has juz come up with the ipod nano. as you can see from teh above pic, its extremely slim, extremely compact. fits nicely into teh palm, as shown below:



it cna even be worn as an arm band:


in fact i htink the arm band look wld be great when you're doign ur regular jogging (not tat i do, of cuz =p)

however the picture below makes me wonder about whether its ergonomic enough. firstly, the display seems super small, but of cuz i'm sure the intended users ie youngsters have enough eye power to handle tat. secondly, there is hardly any buttons there. means there is alot of function sharing among the buttons. while enhancing its cool factor, this also means that the way the commands are mapped out, and shown on teh display panel, must be super clear and easy to follow in order for users to be able to learn how to use the ipod nano easily.


hmmm actually i'm qte sure many of you have heard about it le. cuz i dun usually hear about techie gadgets and now even i noe about it???? shows the wonders that a good (or shld i say, cool) design can do eh. makes pp spread teh word about it, such tat even a mountain panda (wait, is there such a hting as mountain panda???) like me also have heard, and raves, about it.

hmmm too bad i dun have the money to buy it.. i havent checked out the price, but im' sure a cool product comes with a cool price. =(

Friday, September 09, 2005

from domeblog, a blog dedicated to wats happening in new orleans right now:

Long lines and paperwork to get debit cards

The reports almost seemed too good to be true: $2,000 debit cards being handed out at the Astrodome and other Houston shelters. Long lines formed as evacuees rushed to claim the cards promised by the federal government on Wednesday, but the word at the end of the line was disappointing.

Yes, the debit cards are coming. But no, it's not as easy as flashing a Louisiana ID.

No cards were handed out on Wednesday, and standing in line only provided evacuees with a chance to register with the Federal Emergency Management Agency.

Assuring evacuees that registration will allow them to get help tailored to their needs, FEMA spokesman Ed Conley could not say when the cards would be available, but another spokesman told KTRH News Radio today that evacuees can expect to wait seven to 10 days.

"When we ... have the process set up, we'll do it," Conley said.

In the meantime, those who want debit cards but don't want to stand in another line should get the ball rolling by calling 1-800-621-FEMA or going to the agency's web site at http://www.fema.gov.



tats ridiculous loh.. who among those stuck in new orleans right now wld have access to internet or phone??? i mean, there's no power there liao loh.. and all the handphones and laptops wld have been drowned, or if not, their batteries wld have died also.

duhz.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

i juz did another crazy thing.. staying up in the middle of term time to do up my blog.

yet.. i'm still not satisfied. feel like i din put in enough xin1 si1. eg i shld have tried to apply more of wat i learnt in m441: industrial design. haha. mebbe i'll spend another friday night to improve the design. heh. shall see la.


hmmm anw tat stupid scroll bar colour is still off.. spent dunno how long trying to match it with the splash of blue on the left. still no use. bleah.
haha i found some interesting info about singapore here...ok mebbe not. =p







eh... how come the pics are a bit small =(


oops!!! i juz realised.. i've done something illegal. erm shld be ok right. *cross all fingers* anw the pics are taken from this gov webbie

and hmm. i'm not drowsy i dunno y.
hmmm i realised...
contrary to what i tot, the 6 lessons block only includes one dance. and this actually renders my decided solution to the problem useless, cuz now it means i cant possibly have 3 weeks of lessons, break for 6 weeks and have another 3 weeks of lessons. cuz most probably the first and second block of 3 lessons each wont be about the same dance le. =(

so again i'm faced with teh same problem. to take teh class, or not?

argument: (discouragement):
it is my final year. what if i screw it up cuz of dance??? its not worth it at all loh. unless i wanna teach dance as a profession, now tat wld be a different story. but no, i'm not gonna teach dance loh. cuz a)i dun htink my potential is of tat kind of calibre. b)im influenced by the thinking (or prejudice??) that you cant earn much by teaching arts c)i'm not particularly inclined to teach as a profession.

counter-argument (encouragement):
who says i wont be able to handle studies AND extra dance lessons? after all, it'll only take up 1 hour of my time. there isnt even extra travellign time cuz the dance studio is actually on my way home from school. so whether i go dance studio or not, i'll have to take the same route, and thus take the same travellign time. hehe. and besides, im used to getting home ard midnight for a few days a week, so 10pm (the time i'd most probably reach home by after the class) wld even be considered early le.

counter-argument (discouragement):
then again, i'm bound to WANT to practice throughout the week. and i'l have more things to practice too. so the time i spent on dance will definitely increase by more than 1 hour.

counter-argument (encouragement):
but how much more can it increase by???? i noe, and am quite sure, my appetite for practicing at home is not gonna be like last time, when i can practice up to 2 hours continuously. besides, to accoommodate the increase in practicing hours at home, i can sacrifice some of my msn time?? after all... sighz.

ok no more counter-arguments le. but still i'm not convinced that i shld take up teh class.. cuz mebbe there are other unforeseen ways that the dance classes will affect my studies?? and mebbe my encouraging counter-arguments wont really reflect wats gonna happen if i do take up the lessons???

arrrgh cant decide cant decide.

hmmmmmm actually.. come to htink of it, i have already decided le. its juz the courage and assurance i need. haha. such a long entry for nothing eh. but well i'm a female. cant blame us, its in the genes. heh. and yeah i'm amused at myself too. heh..


bleah...

Thursday, September 01, 2005

shall i or shall i not???

take latin techniques class now i mean.

2 main (and perennial) probs:

$$$.
it costs $120 at shawn and gladys, for a total of 6 lessons of 45? min each. tats $20 per lesson. means i have to fork out $80 next month, and mebbe the month after tat, if i wanna learn all 5 dances of competitive latin. but if you compare it to private lessons with shawn (the main instructor and owner of the school), its considered cheap ald.. cuz shawn's private lessons cost $80 per lesson (melvin, his student and secondary instructor charges $65 per lesson).. so, for the same amount of money, i get to enjoy 3 more lessons than if i were to be taking private. of cuz, i'd have to divide the time/attn given to me by gladys (shawn's wife/dance partner) by the number of extra couples in teh class also la. heh. but its ok..

ya.. so i think i wldnt mind forking out $120 for 6 lessons of latin technique with a few other couples.. but, now the prob is not whether i mind or not. its whether i CAN or not. right now my liquid bank account (i try to keep one other bank accoutn frozen for the purpose of saving up money) is left with about $50 bucks, when 4 weeks ago it had $400+. so, means deducting all my expenditures, i have about $50 extra to spend, which means im still short of $30 for teh latin technique. urrrgh... i need to get hold of some money... how????? is anyone charitable enough to give me $30 for 2 months?? haha.

the other main prob, is, of cuz, TIME.
thing is, i'm having school now.. i need time to do projects, tutorials, read textbooks, etc. and my school exams are immediately after the end of this season's latin technique. its my 2nd last sem, i really wanna clear all my subjects. and preferably get some As as well :P (err but its qte difficult, i have only gotten 3 As out of at least 35 modules i've taken in NTU, and its my 2nd last sem so i'd expect the difficulty to increase as well).

so, one obvious solution to this prob, is to take it during my hols. ie, take 5 lessons during the 5 week hols, and 1 last lesson in the first week of the next sem. in this way, i minimize its effects on me during term time. but there're 3 probs to this. 1. for 6 weeks, i can most probably only learn 3 dances, and the timing may not coincide with the 3 dances i prefer to learn. 2. related to teh first problem, is, if i wanna learn more htan 3 dances, i'd have to extend my attendance by 3 more weeks to the 4th week of my final sem. 3. sometimes you like somethign so much you'd want to have it as soon as possible. =P besides, glady's will be teachign jive in this season, which very nicely complements the jive routine that shawn is giving us over these few weeks.

how how how????
i cant decide... goodness. im so indecisive (but more decisive than some other pp, heh). mebbe (and if possible), i'll attend 3 weeks, then concentrate on my studies, then pick up after my exams. hmmmm i think its a good idea.. worth pondering upon.

ok i'm really slpy now. think i'll go sleep!! heh really sorry if i bored you to tears in this entry. but well (online) diaries serve to record the tots of the writer, isnt it, and currently this issue is somewhere within teh top 10 in my head. so write down loh. and yup now you noe i htink alot for every lil small issue in my life. haha. nitez everyone.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

watched this today:




its actually a documentary, for those who dun need excitign story lines, this wld be qte a good movie.. describes the annual journey of teh emperor penguins from the oceans to teh Oamocks - sthg like vast plains of ice - over winter and overcoming several fatal hurdles to give life.. the narratives from the father/mother penguin perspective lends some plot to the documentary, and allows for qte alot of really funny and cute, and sometimes even tragedic moments.




some more pics:






the following pics are not really from teh movie websites, so may not be shots taken from teh movie, but nevertheless, they describe some scenes from teh movie as well.











heh heh.. now im' qte hooked onto these cute little tuxedo-wearing mammals.. they're even featured prominently on my msn display pic! heh heh.

if you're interested, here's some info on the
emperor penguins..

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

ehhhh i htink im' losing steam. projects beginning to seem insurmountable, i'm losing my grip on tutorials and i'm not attending all the lectures le. esp teh first ones in the day (heh heh cuz i've been waking up late).

somehow, the lil drive i had in my academic life these past few weeks is beginning to fizzle out. i wonder why.. juz hope i get back to normal soon.. but right now even tho i've got at least 2 projs and 1 assignment which need my immediate attn, all i wanna do is sit here and stone. oh wait mebbe not. i still haven really recovered completely from the break up. dun wanna think here think there leh. juz makes my heart ache and my mood melancholy only.

haiz.

Friday, August 19, 2005

hehe another of my good frens juz got attached!! me happy happy.. hehe.. =D well they seem really xin fu, and i hope they'll stay this way, if not better, for ever~~

this guy ah.. usually dun blog one, dun even dare to read my blog!! he say he not accustomed to reading about pp's private lives.. duhz~~ but now cuz of this gal he start blogging..heh teh power of love ya.. but i havent had a chance to ask him for permission to link to his blog from mine.. so you dun see any new additions at teh "friends" section. ya... i really hope to see many happy entries to come in his blog.. never ever be like the entries in this archive..heh heh.

whew gotta go back to do doing work.. im late le!! as usual =p

Thursday, August 18, 2005

gee. i juz saw a person wearing a bright red cardigan with the hood over his head, covering his eyes in teh cits lab. i mean its cold but it's not -50 degrees Celcius, you noe??? think he's weird..

and yes 11.03pm and i'm still in teh lab. sighz spent the whole night in school but no results.. i wasted the whole night!!!! told ya i'm i'm really a lousy researcher. oh wait, correction : 'im NOT a researcher. AT ALL. bleah.

eh i better go now before i miss the last train....
its 9pm and i'm in cits lab. i juz got here actually, i was in library 2 prior to this.

previously i've always thought the comps in cits lab was better than teh libraries, cuz
1. cits lab enables right click whereas the libraries do not, hence making some stuff inconvenient eg when you have to choose other options from teh right click menu other than the copy and paste functions
2. the comps here are juz a lil bit faster than those in the libraries, esp for the start up.
3. you can use a newer version of msn messenger here than in the lib, msn 6.2 compared to the old messenger (dun even noe which version, its those kind where there isnt even any display picture) in the libraries.

and the only advantages in using the library was close proximity to textbooks (which is of not much use to me usually, heh heh heh) and the printing shop, where notes are sold.

but juz now, cuz i was doign research and so having textbooks near me wld be good, i chose to go library 2 to use the comp terminals there. and lo and behold! i found earphones in every terminal! if i'm not wrong they were only installed recently, in the past there WERE earphones but only a handful of terminals have it. and of cuz given the large number of pp usign the comp terminals at any one time (esp durign the daytime), you dun really have the luxury of choosing which comp terminals to use. so more often than not, you'd be stuck with a comp w/out earphones.

so wats teh big deal about having earphones in school terminals. big deal i say!! try getting yourself stuck in school to do research at 9pm, when all the others are at home/hall enjoying their fav tv show and you'll noe. music definitely makes things better.

yup. think i'll go library next time i have to work late into teh night in school. the cushioned chair and carpeted floor helps too. haha.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

so here i am in school having a headache. things botherign me right now:

lost my matric card. i dunno where i lost it, last time i used it was yesterday at the library's printign room. i asked the printing room and library staff but neither of tehm have reports of missing matric cards. adn the thign is, its not the first thing i discoverd missing today. the otehr is a purple hairpin, which is really pretty cuzits got swarovski crystals all over it. furthermore its a gift from someone, i feel like i've let him down by losing his gift. urrgh.

and i'm supposed to do some research. but im' really afraid to do it. i'm terribly lousy at research i tell you. its like tehre're sucha wealth of informatino out there (in teh library, in the internet also) how am i suppposed to know where to look??? the keywords in type into google always give me rubbish or scanty results. and as for the library, seems like i have to read through every remotely related book to glean watever little information they hold each. im' so scared im' procrastinating.. and this thing is holding me from completign the rest of wat i've to do. which doesnt really feel very little. bleah..........

sighz. i think i'll go eat dinner alone again before subjecting myself to doing 4 hours of onlien research in the freezing cits lab (hopefully i'll be able to get some useful results out). cheer up, wispie.

Monday, August 15, 2005

hmmmm i think there's a new flavour of instant mee?? the bak kut teh one right??? i'm thinking mebbe i shld give instant mee another chance. hope i dun get disappointed again!!!

i juz downloaded this K one song called Yong3 Gan3 Qu4 Ai4. i asked many pp if htey have it, and all of them said no. izzit really so nan2 ting1 that no one wans it????? i tot it's qte boppy..qte cheery wat. hmmmmmm as my taste in music degenerated or wat??????????

came back from playing tennis.. my first time!!!! sighz kept missing the ball. even when i managed to hit hte ball the racket was the wrong angle, or the ball din make contact w my racket in the middle of the racket, or juz plain no strength, or no follow through. all bad shots. bleah. in the end had to trouble my partner w most of the shots. ironically at the end of the game i was the one who was more shacked out. heh.. lousy me.

i prepared 2 blog entries this past week. but din have the chance to post. but got them written tho. will post when i have the time. been qte busy recently cuz of starting of school. have been managing qte well, not too much back log yet. and i hope not ever for the rest of my school life!!! *cross fingers*
there's a course organised by my church, lessons are gonna be on saturday. i've been wanting to sign up, but when i realised its gonna disrupt my new habit of doign tuts on saturdays, i changed my mind bout signing up.. hmmm but i feel kinda bad about it.. for "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." by not signing up so that i wont disrupt my saturday tutorials, arent I tellign God "Hey God, you're important but my tutorials are more important than You. I cant trust that You'll take care of my tutorials once i juz keep my eyes on you." I actually have a big issue with this, cuz its not the first time i'm telling Him this, and its not juz tutorials that's in that sentence.. in it htere are so much more things.. so much so much more.. i dunno whether i'm being harsher on myself than He is on me, but i feel.. like i'm a big sinner cuz of this..and so.. thats wat i say to Him:

"Dear Father, i know i have sinned. sinned in putting so many other htings in the centre of my life..but not You. but Father, i'm sure You know, that its so hard.. so hard to keep you in the centre in our depraved world today.. wehre distractions and temptations abound. Please forgive me and.. help me..guide me, give me wisdom and strength to follow You. in the name of Jesus Christ i pray, amen. "

callign all my bros and sises, i need encouragement, advice.. if you have any.. do fill me in k... thx a million..

oooh so late.. think i'll go slp now!! oh gotta rub ointment on my forearms.. its so sore from tennis!!! and my fren says its gonna get worse tmr... bleah.










and sometimes, deep down.. when i receive a msg, i secretly wish..that its you.. but i guess things are better this way....

Sunday, July 31, 2005

its confirmed.

the supposedly different flavours of instant noodles do not make any different impression on my tastebuds. ie they all taste the same to me!!! whether it be chicken flavour, or seafood flavour, xo sauce or no xo sauce, they're all teh same!

i hereby condemn instant noodles to the class of VBF. ie Very Boring Food.

anw my fren went on a photo-takign trip to Europe.. the pictures he took were really really nice! the sunburst, as shown below, is my fav. click on it to access a feast for the eyes =D

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

i'm feelign happy, envious, drowsy, sad and scared at the same time.. hey i can multitask! hahaha. lame.

hmmm well i'm happy cuz i juz read rainne's blog.. and saw all the nice nice pics she took in HK. really happy for her that she managed to have such a great time in HK, with her someone .. and so of cuz at the same time im' envious, cuz tats something which i wish wld happen to me but which i cant see in teh near future.

and i'm drowsy cuz its 4.08am..

sad cuz... well those who noe wld noe and those who dunno can guess la i suppose.

and scared cuz i juz started a new semester and i'm really afraid that this sem will be like all the other sems, or even worse.. in the sense that i wont be able to cope with my studies.. actually im qte worried as well cuz despite having gone through 3/4 of my university life i still havent grasped the way to obtain good grades. i had all along tot tat i wasnt able to adapt to a new env very well and now its confirmed. bleah.

sighz oh well but i'm sure He will bring me through.. amen. for He has promised to be my strength, my provider, my wisdom.. and He is faithful.. so.. yup =)
hmmmm sometimes i feel utterly stoopid and selfish.

.................

Friday, July 29, 2005

arrgh i blogged a fairly logn entry but not published!!!! wasted my time!!! =s
ok today is a sinful day.........

had a 5 hour break but in the end spent it all on msn and shoppign at ntu's carnival. of cuz i went to see my ntu prof but tat only accounted for 20? min of the 5 hour break. (warning: the following is mainly for my eyes, to consolidate wat i have to do for my fyp for the next week so it might be a bit boring for you readers) so.. now i have to read up on my senior's work, decide wat has to be done, and plan out a schedule for it. and to do that, i shld go look for the schedule of submission dates for the different parts of my fyp. i also have to obtain teh property data for the panels that i bought.....

yup anw now i'm carryign this huge and ugly red plastic bag (those kind of market plastic bags) containing all the thigns which i bought.. i feel like an auntie now seriously. heh. sighz feel qte guilty actually.. cuz i dun really need some of the thigns tat i bought.. like a cute optical mouse which only cost me $10 and this yoghurt and packet of banana chips both of which i wasnt really craving for and which cost me $2.5 altog. hmmm so i spent $12.5 on un-needed thigns. oh no....

but im' qte proud of ths skirt which i bought... only $5!!!! apparently was $29.90 but they clearing stock so was priced at $8. but the pc i was lookign at was the last one, and had little stains on it, so i managed to bargain to $5... heh heh heh...

lets see.. the total that i spent on this fair amounts to $40.50. sighz and i actually resolved to cut back on my spendings this month. =s

oops!! late for lecture liao........ciao~~

Friday, July 22, 2005

today is not a very good day.

first, i lost 6-0 at solitaire showdown on msn. but ok, i won 2-1 at minesweeper with the same guy. i mean, ya i noe its juz a game. but its juz not a good feeling when you KEEP losing.. esp when they're not close fights.

then, i withdrew out of a dance competition.. i was actually looking forward to it, took some time searching for a partner and even trained 5 dyas out of 7 this week juz for it.. but.. today my partner came back from aceh (yup the place in indonesia), and i juz realised.. we really cannot make it for the competition. i dunno y, but i juz cannot dance well when i'm dancing with him. plus he's not confident at all too, he says he's lost EVERYTHING (ie dance techniques, feel, routine) in one week. i'm really confused now, the feelings are akin to when a breakup happens, without hte heartache (eh but NO i dun feel anything for him.. not at all). i mean ya i AM disappointed. but only cuz i dun get to compete. not cuz i'm not competing WITH HIM, i'm sure you all get wat i mean.

so. twice in a week i've initiated a break off of some kind. now i'm wondering... is there anythign wrong with me? y do i keep breaking off?? izzit juz cuz i'm pampered, i dun wanna try harder when things are not exactly perfect?

but i did..........i tried for so long. its juz that somethings no matter how hard you try, your patience wears thin.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

eh?
wat happen to my post about N3120? was wondering whether i shld buy it..




or the N6020?



or siemens SF65??




i'm hoping to use the phone to do trade in when i upgrade in a few months time. so if its got no value..then i wont buy liao.. how?? anyone can advise me???
goodness its 4am.. have been slping at this time for the past 3 days. goodness. had wanted to slp earlier today actually, cuz school is starting soon and i cant possibly slp at this time in term time right????bleah. but dunno y ended up in front of the comp again.. then surfed and chatted. basically wasted time. arrgh think if i continue this any life that i once had is gonna vanish into thin air.
heh heh juz went to meet up with xiu to have supper and chat chat. we went to the prata place at thomson cuz i havnet been eating late night pratas for ages.. miss the supper outings manz.

ordered 1 sardine murtabak and 1 mushroom cheese prata, plus 2 dinosaur milos. kudos to the mushroom cheese.. nice!! but the sardine murtabak wanst to my taste tho. regret ordering it. even with xiu's help, only managed to eat less than half of it. but then i ate most of the mushroom cheese before i ate hte sardine, so the lack of the empty space in my stomach space was a factor too. heh as i said to xiu, i overestimated my gastronomic abilities.

she drove me there and back.. i asked about wat she tot of driving and she commented that its so tiring sometimes she juz wish that she had a bf so he can chaffeur ard. but actually, i seriously doubt the equation bf (even one who can drive and has an available car) = willing chaffeur. oh definitely not.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

sometimes, i want something so badly, that my heart hurts.. literally.. when i realise i cant ever have it.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

wow!! its been 2 weeks plus since i last blogged!! record breaking...

well naturally being away for so long, i've loads to blog about. like how i spent my hols slacking.. wat are some of my (shopping) wishes.. my random tots.. etc etc.

actually i also dun really know wat i've been doing.. heh.. basically meeting up people, dance, starting on my fyp (final year project).. thinking about wat to do upon my graduation (in one year's time) and attending rainne's graduation. oh and going to hte zoo. (dun ask me why cuz im not too sure myself) wanted to post pictures up but they're still not ready..

sighz actually i dun really feel like bloggin now.. there's one hting thats weighing on my heart... at this moment, i juz feel like lying on my bed and staring into space... i know i shld be concerned with my fyp, concerned with starting of school, concerned with buying a new phone.. but all these require too much braincells.. much more than wat i'm prepared to use. heh.

hmmm fireworks are in the sky.. but i cant see them leh.

urrrghh i juz killed a giant moth. i hate those moths.. so scarie~~ i had to hide behind the safety of my glass sliding doors before i cld dare to stick an arm out and spray baygon on it. had to spray qte alot before it cooperated and became dizzy tho. hmmm i think i sound really cruel but c'mon who besides true blue buddhist devotees doesnt kill insects? so anw now its body is lying under one of my kitchen slippers. think muz be qte messy so will get my pa to clean it up for me later. hmmmm... now i sound like hit and run drivers. heh.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

i became achy-gal this afternoon.. i've got shoulderache, toothache, heartache and headache. sighz

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

my shoulder hurts. but of cuz.. it doesnt matter.
ya im' juz having paranoia... i do appreciate all of you - you know who you are (and who you arent) - who have been showing me concern and offering a listening ear nowadays.. thanks so much!
i'm having a sense of paranoia. i feel like... no one really cares about me liao... hmmm except for my mum.. she's always there.. sighz
i dun feel happy. dun feel happy dun feel happy dun feel happy dun feel happy. arrrrgh!!...................

Sunday, June 26, 2005

so the next day i went to MANGO SALE!!! haha not really specifically to shop for yellow dresses and green tops, but juz cuz its the MANGO SALE!!!

i'm a fan of mango.. and yes i do love the fruit (ripened and sweet ones, please) as well, thx. haha.

well of cuz i took the chance to shop for yellow dresses and green tops. i saw a green top tat was qte ok, except it was a bit ex. i was actually foolish enough to queue to pay up but thankfully i was persuaded to abandon the queue by my frens, who politely reminded me that the movie (which happened to be initial-D by the way, and which happened to have lotsa cool guys in it - i'm swooning juz htinking of them) that i was gg to watch was due to start in 5 min time in a cinema tat was a good 20min hurried walk away (thank goodness the movie started 15 min late, and so i was JUST in time! hehe). and thus i was able to save $29.

so, no green tops for me yet. no yellow dresses either actually, cuz i din manage to see any. i did see a green dress, and i actually trawled 4 branches of mango (haha pun unintended) (wisma, lido, back to taka, then raffles city, altogether from 1pm to 7pm, with about half an hour's break at macs for lunch) juz to find the yellow version. but i cldnt find any single one!! (yes i did confirm with the sales staff that there IS a yellow version around so apparently its been snapped up.. =( )

so.. yeah.. i actually paid $55 to buy some stuff which isnt on my shopping list but havent gotten those which are yet. hmmm i actually regret giving up tat $55.. cuz seriously under normal circumstances i wld have tot its a bit ex for 1 orange beaded top and plain white knee length skirt to cost $55 altogether. sighz but i juz couldnt resist the temptation of buying.. cuz its the MANGO SALE!!! yesh i noe its stupid and really silly to buy sthg juz cuz its the mango sale even tho its still expensive after 50% discount, and to defend myself i'll mention taht i did stop myself from buyign another more ex skirt okay. heh.

in fact in a way i'm stil unrepentant.. i intend to go back again! cuz apparently they've got some more designs unreleased. mebbe i'll discover some good finds again! hmm but i do hope i manage to keep myself from teh cashier's counter if they're not value for money tho. hee. hmmm i still rem the tops i bought from the past seasons of mango sales were all nice and cost only less than $20. but cldnt find such good finds this time it seems. i hope i'm wrong! *hope*

well and of cuz i muz gush abit about initial D too. but actually apart from teh cool guys (even the uncles in teh show! sauve.. haha) and fast action and (only one) cute gal and funny dialogues/scenes i cant htink of anything much to say.. cuz i'm not really a fan of the anime actually. only caught bout 20 min of it while i was waiting for my fren who was browsing in the anime store. heh. but well i guess if i WAS a fan of the anime i wldnt like it so much.. cuz apparently qte a few of my frens din really like the movie cuz it din do justice to the anime. like the stunts were much paler, and qte a few of the details of the anime were misrepresented. and of cuz becuz of the time constraint on the movie much of the plot couldnt be delivered.
oh well.............

well its qte late now.. shall go zzz.. had a long day today actualyl.. starting w badminton in teh morning (at 9am!!! super early for me.. i've waking up at 1pm, 3pm, 4pm the past few days. heh heh) and continueing with not one, but Two sessions of bible study. which ended at 7pm. =S oh well you can say i was nourished physically and spiritually tho. hehe..

yepz nitez peepz.. till teh next entry~~~~

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

i wanna get a green top and a yellow dress!!
woo hoo!!! its the holidays!!! my IA has finally ended haha..
so 'ive got no excuse liao... cant say i've no time anymore.. gotta do up my blog layout!

still looking for inspiration tho. tats y this page is still so boring.

boring boring boring boring boring. i lead a boring lifestyle. me = boring. bleah.

Monday, June 20, 2005

It is wrong to be nice to someone and expect something in return.










but i juz cant help feeling a tinge of disappointment when there is no reciprocation .....
another quote from someone somewhere...

"Love requires time. a love tt comes fast is a crush, an infatuation. it may turn into love in e end, but it shdnt be interpreted as love at 1st sight."
here's a quote from someone somewhere..

" When it rains we wait for the sun
When the rain stops, the rainbow appears instead...
Somethings are just like the rainbow, you didn't expect it will happen but when it happened, no doubt it's short but yet it's beautiful..."

Thursday, June 16, 2005

"... Third, we must remember this: each transition will involve some kind of loss. Growth will always be costly; a new venture will always involve some form of letting go. It may be a matter of separation - from parents or from those who are part of an old way or an old world. It may involve leaving behind the comfortable and the secure. Each transition will be a small death, and the new life, the new opportunity and the new challenge will only come as we let go. "

taken from Courage and Calling by Gordon T. Smith.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

hmmmmmmmmm today's mood is......... very very pale violet. anyone knows wat that means?????? guess not. haha. and i dun wanna elaborate. why? cuz my mood is very very pale violet.

yes i noe i seem to be speaking some rubbish language again. but tats how emotions are, see? sometimes, emotional things cannot be explained by logic. oh well.............lalala~

Sunday, June 05, 2005

eh.. do twice about having foie gras next time when you're ordering your food at a french restaurant..

History
Foie gras has been exalted in some gourmet food circles as a prized delicacy, but if most people knew how foie gras is produced, they would be horrified.
Foie gras, the French term for "fatty liver," is the product of extreme animal cruelty. It is the swollen, diseased liver of ducks and geese who are force-fed just up until the point of death before being slaughtered. Birds suffer tremendously, both during and after the force-feeding process, as their physical condition rapidly deterioriates. In just a few weeks, their livers swell up to ten times their normal size, and the birds can scarcely stand, walk, or even breathe. At this point, they are slaughtered, and their livers are peddled as a "gourmet" delicacy.
The idea for this cruel force-feeding practice is thought to have originated in ancient Egypt, after people noticed that wild geese often gorge themselves before embarking on long migrations. Because Egyptians considered the fat-laden flesh and organs of those geese caught after this pre-migration gorging to taste better, they sought to artificially induce and exaggerate this condition in captive geese. Thereafter, the practice of force-feeding took hold, later degenerating and devolving into what is now the modern foie gras industry.

Confinement and Cruelty

Today foie gras production is concentrated in France, which produces and consumes 90% of the world's foie gras. Roughly 24 million ducks and half a million geese are killed annually for France's foie gras industry. Nearly all of the birds are raised in intensive confinement systems, and all of them endure brutal, intensive force feeding, several times a day, in the weeks prior to their deaths.
In modern foie gras factory farms, geese and ducks are confined, usually in either small pens or in tiny cages that virtually lock the birds in place. Thus restrained, the birds cannot escape the "feeder" and the mechanized feeding machine. One by one, the feeder grabs each bird and plunges the metal pipe of the feeding machine down their throats. The machine then pumps a huge amount of a corn-and-oil mixture (equivalent, for a human, to 11 pounds of food) directly into their gullets in just a few seconds.

This brutal treatment is devastating to the health of the birds. In a matter of weeks, their livers have swollen up to ten times their normal size. Breathing and walking become difficult as the liver pushes against other organs and forces the legs to move outward at an unnatural angle. Ducks at foie gras farms have been observed panting and struggling to stand, using their wings to push themselves forward when their crippled legs can no longer support them.
In this compromised state, depressed birds can no longer engage in normal preening behaviors, and this is compounded by the fact that they are denied access to water sufficient for them to engage in normal, instinctual behaviors. Their plumage becomes encrusted with filth, and most of them develop what foie gras farmers call "wet neck"-when their unpreened feathers curl up and become coated with dirt and oil.
They also suffer, as do all factory-farmed ducks, from debilling, which is performed ostensibly to prevent them from pecking each other when they are so severely confined. Shortly after birth, a hot knife sears off the tips of their sensitive upper bills, slicing through tissue rich in nerve endings. Debilled poultry suffer from chronic pain for the rest of their lives, often having trouble eating and preening.

Liver Disease
Furthermore, liver function in foie gras birds is severely compromised. In medical terms, the liver is in a state of dysfunction called hepatic lipidosis or hepatic steatosis, meaning it can no longer perform its intended function. According to avian veterinarian Dr. Laurie Siperstein Cook, "The liver is there to clean out toxins from the blood stream. If the liver can't work properly, you've got all these toxins flowing through the blood, making them feel bad in various ways, so it can harm various organs as well as the brain."
Dr. Castes of L'Ecole Nationale Veterinaire de Toulouse describes this phenomenon further as "hepatic encephalopathy":
This is the result of an endogenous intoxication due to the hepatic impairment; the liver can no longer play its role as a circulatory filter. As a result, various metabolites appear in the blood that are usually stopped by the liver (ammonium, mercaptans, short-chain antigens) and that may then reach the central nervous system (particularly sensitive to these compounds) and trigger central nervous troubles such as:
- cerclage movements,
- eptileptiform crisis
- Increase of the intracranial pressure accompanied by migraines, and finally stupor, coma and death.

Not surprisingly, the mortality rate on foie gras farms can be up to 20 times higher than the death rate on conventional duck farms. Ducks can die when the metal feeding tube punctures their necks, or when their stomachs literally "burst" from the enormous volume of food they are forced to ingest. Necropsies performed on foie gras birds have shown them to suffer from grossly enlarged livers, lacerated tracheas and esophagi, throats and gullets impacted with undigested corn, and massive internal bacterial and fungal growth (see Farm Sanctuary necropsy report, p. xx).

Spurious Industry Arguments

The foie gras industry often tries to justify its practices by saying they are just an extension of the natural, pre-migration gorging behaviors of migratory fowl, first noted by the Egyptians thousands of years ago. However, this claim is patently false on several accounts.
First, migratory geese never gorge themselves up until the point of death before migration. Such extreme behaviors would be physically incapacitating and would be antithetical to their survival. As asserted by Dr. Yvan Beck, a French veterinarian who published a comprehensive study on foie gras production, "There is no comparison between what nature does. . . and the extreme which force feeding represents for the organism. At the end of this process the birds are, in any case, incapable of making the smallest effort, which is in total contradiction to the aim of the natural process."
Second, the duck species (Muscovy and Mulard) used in foie gras production are non-migratory and not predisposed to gorging as are wild geese. Artificially-induced gorging is extremely painful and debilitating to these birds, as noted by the European Scientific Committee on Health and Animal Welfare's 1998 report, which concluded that "Whilst the domestic goose might well be adapted to store food before migration, it is less likely that a cross between the domestic duck and the Muscovy duck, the Mulard, has such potential for food."
Today, the Mulard duck, a cross between the Muscovy and the Pekin duck, is the most commonly-used bird in the foie gras industry throughout the world. It is, in fact, the only species of bird used by U.S. foie gras producers because it is considered easier to raise than geese or other breeds of ducks. Because the male Mulard duck is larger and hardier (and thus better able to survive the rigors of force feeding), females are almost never used, and they are either killed after hatching or raised for meat.
Legislative Remedies
Over the last few decades, foie gras production has been outlawed in at least fourteen countries, either with explicit language in the laws, or as part of the general animal cruelty law. As of January 2004, Italy banned foie gras production, following the lead of Austria, the Czech Republic, Denmark, Finland, Germany, Luxembourg, Norway, and Poland. Other countries whose laws have been interpreted to ban the force feeding of animals for foie gras production include Holland, Sweden, Switzerland, and the United Kingdom.
Perhaps most significantly, Israel, once the world's fourth largest foie gras producer, recently banned foie gras production in the country. In August 2003, the Israeli Supreme Court issued a 39-page decision declaring foie gras production to be contrary to the country's animal protection laws. In issuing his opinion, Judge Strasberg-Cohen stated:
There is no real controversy with respect to the fact that the practice of force-feeding causes suffering to the geese. . . the goose is prevented from eating freely and is forcefully fed several times a day with high energy food and in quantity far above is physiological requirements. The process-whereby a metal tube, through which the food is packed into its stomach, is introduced into the goose's body-is violent and harmful. The process causes a degenerative disease in the goose's liver and enlargement of the liver up to ten times its normal size. There is no controversy that without the injury to the goose liver, it is not possible, at present, to produce goose liver. (see Israeli Report, page 32).
His colleague, Justice E. Rivlin, concluded the court's declaration by stating:
. . . no one denies that these creatures also feel the pain inflicted upon them through physical harm or a violent intrusion into their bodies. Indeed, whoever wishes to may find, in the circumstances of this appeal, prima facie justification for the acts of artificial force-feeding, justification whose essence is the need to retain the farmer's source of livelihood and enhance the gastronomic delight of others. . . But this has a price-and the price is reducing the dignity of Man himself.
Like my colleague Justice Strasberg-Cohen, I also think that the regulations concerning the force-feeding procedure are to be annulled, and the acts of artificial force-feeding, as allowed by the regulations, are banned. (see Israeli Report, p. 39).
Despite these legislative advances, worldwide foie gras production has been increasing dramatically in recent years, and in France it has nearly doubled in the last decade. The last decade has also seen the establishment of foie gras farms in the U.S., which previously imported all of its foie gras from abroad. Hudson Valley Foie Gras in New York is responsible for most of the U.S. foie gras production, followed by Sonoma Foie Gras in California. Undercover investigations in both of these farms have revealed terrible, graphic suffering, from bloodied birds barely able to stand or walk, to trash cans full of dead birds. Legislative and other efforts are now underway in the U.S. to ban this cruelty. Click here to see how you can help.

Legal Prosecutions
Farm Sanctuary is urging the San Joaquin County, California District Attorney to investigate and prosecute Sonoma Foie Gras for violating California's animal cruelty statute. In making the request, Farm Sanctuary submitted a full year's worth of evidence, including videotape, photographic evidence and written documentation of the ongoing mistreatment and suffering of ducks at the facility. The evidence shows, among other cruelties: Ducks encrusted in filth, bloodied ducks, ducks unable to stand or walk, ducks having difficulty breathing, and dead ducks lying in cages among live ducks. It presents graphically what animal protection advocates have long claimed: That Sonoma Foie Gras wreaks horrific abuses and torture on its animals to produce a "delicacy" food item.
Please click here to read Farm Sanctuary's letter requesting prosecution.
In August 2003, the Israeli Supreme Court determined that the force feeding of birds to produce foie gras is a violation of the nation's anti-cruelty laws. The Israeli Animal Welfare Law states, "No one shall torture an animal, treat it cruelly or abuse it in any manner." (clause 2(a)) Noah, the Israeli Federation of Animal Protection Organizations acted as the plaintiff in the court case, and asked that the court rule that force feeding is forbidden under Israeli law because force feeding constitutes torture, cruel treatment and abuse.
The judges ruled in favor of the plaintiffs, and Israel joined the many other nations that have prohibited foie gras production. As Judge T. Strasberg-Cohen stated summarily, "There is no real controversy with respect to the fact that the practice of force feeding causes suffering to the geese."



A farm worker force feeds the birds by plunging a long, metal pipe down their throats several times a day.



A victim of forced-feeding, choked to death on his own regurgitation, lies dead in a pen.


Rough handling during the force feeding process results in bloodied birds, many of them with broken bills.






****text and pictures taken from nofoiegras.org****
can anyone deserve to be loved???????????
seriousli, i realli (x infiniti) dunno y i became so definiteli extremeli sylli. sobz
i juz watched hg2g (hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, for the uninitiated). well if you've read the book, you'll realize alot of parts are omitted. and most of htem are funny parts. i dunno whether its me, or juz the show.. i din really feel inclined to luff in the cinema juz now. and well i din hear much luffter either. i dunno... i felt the book was much funnier. i'd give it a 3 stars out of 5 i guess. ok half more for the sake of the book.

bought a mascara from fasio booth at orchard juz now too, whch entitled me to a goody bag, makeover and a chance to be fasio's sunshine gal. ie after the makeover you get to pose for a picture and use that picture to enter a sorta photogenic contest. well admittedly i was aiming to get into the finals but erm wasnt happy enough to put on my best smile. sighz. i felt it was so wasted.

i really admire pp who can pretend to be so happy when they're not. i wonder how they do it. i think its a useful skill to have, to seem happy all the time. cuz i htink when you radiate happiness, happy things will naturally follow, and then you dun have to act anymore.

i miss my SE k700i. i was really enjoying having accompanying pics to my blog entries. i was at the youth festival today and saw alot of interesting stuff. but w/out my SE k700i i cant post anyhting up.

i dunno y i'm getting so stressed and emotional these few days. i dun think its pms. mebbe i noe the reason.. but the more i acknowledge it, the worse it becomes. weird logic i noe. but tats how it is. and i dun wanna explain cuz if i explain, i'll be acknowledging it. haha.

pp tell me to juz be myself. but i've always been myself. i've always taken the path i wanna go, the course of action i wanna take. which havent always been the right ones, but then, they're mine all the same.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

gee i'm really glad i noe how to play the piano.. it brings peace and serenity to the soul.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

tmr - or rather today - is the BIG day!! not mine hehe but my sis. yep my sis's gonna be somebody's wife as of tmr~~

hmm shld slp now.. i'm waking up even earlier than for work! cuz the makeup artist's gonna be at my house at 630am.. sheesh.

feel slpy..

hmm hope nothing goes wrong tmr.

zzzzz....

Thursday, May 19, 2005

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005



here's wat the narnia personality quiz says about me:


As Lucy Pevensie, you may be quite timid and shy, but your heart is in the right place! You make sure you tell the truth, even if it results in embarrassment.



hmmm mostly true.. keke

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

hmmm today was a lousy day.
1. missed my alarm's ringing,
2. sis snagged the bathroom away,
3. missed the bus,
4. caught in drizzle,
5. struggled on slippery floors,
6. found the water cooler (which i depend v much on in office hours) broken down,
7. had to go to another level to get not-so-clean-water (i suspect),
8. got deprived of the usage of my laptop which i borrowed,
9. Vied with a fellow colleague over hte use of a common PC for an entire day,
10. din have breakfast, lunch and almost dinner, and 3 most importantly(s)
11. blew my cover off when my NTU tutor realised how lousy i was at my work,
12. got piled with additional research work to do (i HATE to and CANT do research),
13. got piled with additional thermodynamics calculations to do (i HATE to and CANT do thermodynamics -- i scraped past my first thermo module but in for the second, got an F i believe)....

i'm juz glad its over.

but! come to think of it, in teh same breath i can say today's a good day cuz

1.woke up on time (despite being deaf to the ringing of the alarm) (by the rumble of my sister's trolley on the floor when she came back from a flight),
2. was juz SLIGHTLY later than my usual lateness (yesh i'm late EVERYDAY) despite missing the bus,
3. drizzle was juz tat: drizzle and not pouring rain,
4. managed to stay upright on slippery floors,
5. managed to write a bit of my report and log books even tho i din have exclusive usage to a PC,
6. realised that i only have 1 week left to do my report instead of realising it later and htus having lesser time to do it,
7. was supplied with 2 delicious cookies by (another of) my colleague which later became my breakfast (the cookies, not my colleague) (and was supposed to be my lunch as well but strangely eventually there was no need for it.. i wasnt hungry),
8. managed to settle dinner at home,
9. managed to spend not a single cent today, AND
10. saw my tutor for the last significant time in the capacity of the IA student under his care (WOOHOO)(i really dread his visits to the company everytime)!


hmmmmmm 3 more bad htings than good ones.

but still,

GOD IS GOOD!

oh btw God, please show me the way to write my report...and yeah i'm sure You will.

Monday, May 16, 2005







You Have Your PhD in Men


You understand men almost better than anyone.

You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.

Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.


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Your Aura is Purple


Your Personality: You're a dreamer and visionary. You believe you were put on this earth to do something great.



You in Love: You're very passionate but often too busy for love. You need a man who sees your vision and adopts it as his own.



Your Career: You need a job that helps you make a difference. You have a bright future as a guru, politician, teacher, or musician.


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and its my fav colour!!! hmmm but not true of the 2nd point.. (yet?) haha







Your Gemstone is Aquamarine


Intuitive, tranquil, and trusting.

You inspire others to have faith in themselves.


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aquamarine?? who's birthstone is tat?? mine's garnet..hmmmmmmmmm







You Are the Girl Next Door!


You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.
Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.
But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!
You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.




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yeah i think it means i'm dull... sobz







Your Passion is Purple!


You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.
If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.
But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.
You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.




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see??? purple = me!!! but erm i never lack energy????? haha. in fact i was thinking mebbe i shld start drinking the you mei shu








Your Element is Earth


Your power color: yellow



Your energy: balancing



Your season: changing of seasons



Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends.

You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems.

Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones.

Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful.

What Element Are You?




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