Saturday, April 22, 2006

i think im getting flabby... and fat........ at the wrong areas. arrgh. one of my frens commented that one good thing about exams is that they help us to lose weight. tats not true for me. i need to munch when i'm stressed, tats y i need tidbits when studying. which also means, if i were to study outside, i'd prefer to study in cafes/canteens rather than in libraries.

and i wanna say, i din forget.. im juz protecting myself..

Friday, April 21, 2006

how long more???? how long more before this exam ends???

these few days, i have gained some experiences, experiences of how far 300km is, and how hard a wooden block feels to a soft warm heart.

i have underestimated my knowledge of fluids. i look at my notes and discover many alien things. i spur myself to make sense of them, i implore my notes to let me understand them, both to no avail.

it is at times like these that my mind wanders, and my heart follows. but they are both lost, or rather, they do not want to find themselves, for they are afraid of answering questions. eg, questions that ask them to find the pressure at the end of the adiabatic pipe with friction (tats a fanno flow, btw), and other types of questions.


numbness sets in...........i shall attempt to befriend my fluids notes again.

Friday, April 07, 2006

phew! today has been a tumultous day for me. but thanks to His grace and providence, everything was sorted out in teh end.

it started off with a disgusting sight i saw on my way to school. was on my way to teh bus-stop and through my peripheral vision, saw this little boy (i presume) doing his business by the side of the pavement i was walking on. he had his shorts pulled down to about his knees (cldnt ascertain the details cuz upon noticing the sight, i immediately pretended to be too busy smsing to realise anything) but the worse thing was, he was facing the pavement, not away from it in a half squatting position. means if i actually turned my head in his direction (which i definitely din, of cuz) i wld have an almost full frontal view of everything. my goodness. in fact actually i cant really say he cld be excused by his juvenility cuz i seemed to see sthg black down there, means he shld have been past puberty???! on the other hand his height was like a child. but well, i shall give him the benefit of the doubt. but anw thankfully i only had a v unclear view through the corner of my eye, and it only lasted for less than sec cuz i immediately looked away so din see anything. so only suffered minimal visual pollution. heh. but strangely i was abnormally calm, when i shdnt be, cuz in a way i was almost exposed to indecent behaviour by some adult male??? i juz pretended to be oblivious and continued walking to the bus-stop
w/out missing a beat. in fact when i got to the bus-stop i saw a lady looking at me, with juz a slight hint of weird expression on her face but i continued to pretend nothing was amiss. a while later i stole a glance back at where i spotted the sight, but thankfully i was spared teh awkward sight cuz the "child" was no longer there. for a moment i tot mebbe i was imagining things but a subsequent whiff of the smell of fertilizers confirmed otherwise. heh. oh well. i really do hope it was a boy there, but still, given his height he shld be at least 9 yrs old? tat's ald too old for doing business in public isnt it? and i hope he din cause any stress to any other lady.

soon after i got on the bus, my nose started behaving like a malfunctioned tap. kept on sneezing and blowing my nose. thankfully i ate lunch shortly after, so gained some energy to prevent it from being worse.

i got to school and started to finish up my fyp project. in fact i juz needed to type the contents page, print the whole thing out, photocopy the appendix, and bind the whole lot together. i estimated a maximum of 1 hour to do tat, but in the end it took me 3 whole hours. why? cuz

firstly, i discovered that detection of my thumbdrive by my comp was lost midway. i couldnt save teh work that i opened from my thumbdrive, neither back into the thumbdrive, nor onto the desktop. the comp kept telling me that there was insufficient space to do tat. subsequently i discovered that the things in my thumbdrive all disappeared. immediately i tot the thumbdrive i was using had been corrupted, AGAIN. (yes its the 2nd time that happened to me in a sem, and no this wasnt the thumbdrive tat died on me the first time. haiz dunno y i keep having this thing with thumbdrives.) i also realised i may not be able to submit my report today after all. i cld still print the thigns that were open on the comp, but there were other things to be included tat was lost together with the rest of the data in the thumbdrive. so i had to redo them, and i wld take at least 3 hours to do that, which is more than the time i had to submit the report. so i called up my prof and told him teh "good" news. well he sounded ok about me extending the deadline (again), not angry at all. i'm thinking whether he was hiding any daggers behind tat frenly exterior, like "yeah be a bad gal for all you want, i'll juz deduct marks from your report when i mark it" or was it juz cuz he was too used to my bad gal behaviour and was expecting me to extend the deadline anw?

and together with teh prob of not being able to submit my fyp on time, was the complication that actually this thumbdrive wasnt mine.. it was lent to me by someone (to provide a temporary substitution for tat first thumbdrive tat died on me) and all his stuff was inside! i was qte lost then, and needed some help. initially wanted to call him, but he's been kinda busy lately and i have this feeling he wldnt really like to be disturbed so din really feel inclined to trouble him unless absolutely necessary. so i called up my project mate, and he suggested that i get another thumbdrive and save the work tat was open on the comp before it got lost as well, and to try the dead thumbdrive on another comp to see if the data can be read there. as i was alone and thus had no one else to borrow thumbdrive from, he helped me borrow a thumbdrive from his fren who was in the lib as well.

so i got another thumbdrive, but it wasnt of much use cuz again there wasnt enough memory to save it into the thumbdrive. and things took a turn for the worse when again the comp suddenly cldnt detect the new thumbdrive even tho it was plugged into the comp. it disappeared from windows explorer altogether, altho the hardware was still happily blinking away from the comp's usb port. somehow i also cldnt "safely remove" it from the comp. which means, i'm stuck with another possibly dead thumbdrive, which again, wasnt mine. =S i called up my proj mate again and this time he was at a loss too. for a moment i really cldnt think of wat else to do, then, i tot mebbe i cld log off and hopefully the comp can regenerate the data in the thumbdrives tat were plugged into it. and tats wat i did, and thank goodness, the new thumbdrive recovered =D. but my fren's thumbdrive still seemed empty =|however, this time, i cld safely remove both of them.

i changed comp and voila! both the thumbdrives cld be read!! all the data tat appeared missing was back in where they were supposed to be. felt it was truly God's grace tat made this happen, i was really thankful for tat.

so i began to do up the content page again (since the work i did on teh other comp was lost) and started to print my report out. but probs kept occurring (like empty cashcard, wrong print jobs, etc), causing delays, however they were easily solved/taken care of. i made ALOT of trips to and from the printing machine, and wiped out my cashcard in less than an hour. i spent about $35, and got 1 colour copy and 2 b/w copies of my report, which had slightly over 70 pages each, and about 20 pages of rough paper (the result of wrong print jobs).

but by the time i was done, it was ald 6pm, my prof had gone home. cldnt submit it to the general office either, as it was closed. so can only submit it on monday, which means i have to specially come back juz to submit the report to my prof, cuz my lessons have ended. haiz. all the way to ntu juz to hand in something... if i had other things to do in the west it wldnt be tat bad actually.. but oh well i guess life's like tat.

yupz tats all for today.. had to endure a drippign nose teh whole time too. but at the same time i also experienced His providence, not juz in the thumbdrive fiasco but also in teh other less major probs tat i encountered today..for eg there was once i had a print job which cost $6.30, and the balance in my cash card read $6.40. it was jus nice loh. somehow, i juz kinda felt it was miraculous. =D

so yeah, tot i shld thank and praise Him for today before leaving school, and hence this entry. started writing 2 hours ago, but feel its worth it. thank You Father, for Your faithfulness and providence and companionship. i know i'll never starve with You around, and even tho i forget sometimes, You're still here looking out for me. Father i pray that You'll constantly remind me of Your love, may i fear and revere You, and worship You in the way tat is pleasing in Your eyes. thank You for always listening to my prayers, in teh name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out

Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking

What turns you off: fighting and conflict

Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love
of late, i have been thinking about cutting my hair short. and changing my hairstyle in the process. tats cuz i cant stand my frizzy ends.. was hoping the short length will concentrate the nutrients tat is sent to my hair, and thus hope tat my hair will be smoother, with less kinks and frizzes. cuz tats wat happened to a fren of mine.. her hair had split ends and stuff.. but due to some reasons, she decided to cut it all off.. to a shoulder length. she stayed with this hairstyle for several months, refusing even to grow it out for dance. but when she did become too busy to go teh hairdresses, she discovered wat grew out was a head of hair tat is so soft.. so smooth.. so dreamlike. and i want tat kind of hair!!!! so ya. wanna cut it short.

but its a good hair day today, and suddenly i felt like letting my hair grow grow grow.. till my waist. imagine having smooth, straight hair tat reaches till the waist.. tat is so feminine!

hmmmm but tat is juz a passing tot. firstly cuz i think i'm too short for hair of such length and secondly, i muz admit i have more bad hair days than good ones, so i really need the haircut. heh. besides i dun really like to have too long a head of hair. cuz well it looks tooooooo tame. i htink im' tame enough, dun wanna appear to be more tame than i ald am. otherwise i'll be bullied by pp. haaa. seriously dunno why i suddenly for a moment wanted long long hair.

crazy me.