my results were out today. finally, after 4 sems since yr 1 sem 2, i passed all my subjects. this shld be great news, especially since i really expected to fail about 5 out of 7 subjects. however, this is not the case. i am feelign qte sian now actually, about my results.

y is this so leh?

firstly, my grades are below average. the average results, for the average mae student, is 1 or 2 A, qte a few Bs, 1 or 2 Cs. but for me, its a 1 B, 4 Cs, 2 Ds.

secondly, recently i have begun to have some interest in working as an industrial designer (for the uninitiated, it means someone who designs products, industrial and otherwise). i know i cant depend on my overall results to get the job i want, as my uni grades are really quite terrible. i was hoping instead to use my industrial design module to appeal to my prospective employers. thus i have begun to shift my focus from completing my studies within 4 years, to attaining an impressive grade for my industrial design module. however, i got D(+) for my industrial design module. tell me, which company wld hire someone with D(+) for industrial design as an industrial designer???

so ok, i tell myself, its alright, mebbe i'll get a masters in industrial design, and get some decent grades from there (i believe i got D+ not cuz of my designing incapabilities, but more of my inability to manage my time. this is becuz i only had time to do half my ID paper, and i'm qte confident that if only the half tat i did was examinable, i'd have scored at least a B). however, given my present grades, i wont have even the basic requirements to enter the masters course. sighz.

ya. so basically the reason y i'm unhappy despite passing every subject (and thus ensuring that i need not squeeze more subjects into my final sem) is cuz 1. my grades are below average 2. my dream of being an industrial designer is almostly certainly squashed.

there's actually more to point 1 than juz a below avg grade. wat i'm saying is, its not so bad if i were in my first sem of uni. if tats the case, i can encourage myself by saying tat i'm juz not accustomed to uni life, and i can bounce back to being in the top 20% of the cohort next sem. however, the truth is, this is already my 2nd last sem in uni. 3.5 years, and i still havent mastered teh art of doing well in uni. i'm not even the average. i'm in fact BELOW average, in terms of grades. and come to htink of it, mebbe everything else. heh.

ok, you may say, grades is not everythign. but to those who dun really intend to start their own business, it matters qte a bit. bleah...

ok lar mebbe i was juz being pessimistic. mebbe there are other good things about my results, juz tat i focus more on the bad ones. mebbe i shld try finding more positive aspects of my results, and focus my tots more on them.

and actually anw so wat if nothing good (except tat i passed everyhting) can be said about my results? as my msn nick says "there are many regrets in life. wat matters is how we deal with them" the important thing now is not to fault anyone or lament the unfavourable circumstance, for afterall everyhting is past and there's no use crying over spilt milk. wats important now, following the analogy of the spilt milk, is to find a mop and mop the floor clean. and now, in the case of my disappointing results, is to figure out wat to do next.

so i guess.. there's nothing i can do but to learn from my mistakes loh.. and hope to make the best of next sem.

the first thing i muz learn is to re-acquire, and perform all my exam techniques. ok i never really did adhere strictly to the rules that muz be adhered to before you can be qualified to be exam smart (eg limiting urself to spending only the allocated time on each question and nothing more, doing the questions which you feel more comfortable first, etc etc) but after i came to uni, it was worse. for eg, instead of exceeding the allocated time by 5 mins, now im' exceeding by 15. and instead of attempting every question even when you're not sure of the answer (so that if it turns out correct you get some marks), i'll juz leave the question blank. how silly can tat be.

and the 2nd thing i muz learn is.. oops i havnet figured out wat other things i muz learn. heh.

ehhh. i think i'll let myself come up with the answer slowly.. i usually take my time to generate ideas.. mei2 ban4 fa3, i am tat slow a worker. heh.

its late.. i shld be putting in more effort in my beauty project. which is to slp early so i can get rid of my eye circles.. haha.

nitez everyone! wishing everyone a happy day tmr~