music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya
 
school has started!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gonna be a rough ride again.. sighz.. this time i'm taking 24 AUS.. i tried taking 22 once, after which i realised its too much for me. i wonder how i'm gonna cope now..
 
but i guess i shldn't keep looking at the -ve side of things.. shld focus on the positive!!! ie.. err i can only think of one *wistful smile*
 
sighz i htink there's sthg wrong w me these 2 days.. dunno y i'm juz plagued with alot of -ve tots recently. i feel bleah. big change from juz 3 weeks ago. but logically there seems to be nothing wrong in my life. but nowadays its more like: i'll ponder over small little things everywhere and think they point to some not so small probs (whether existent or non-existent, heh) or it may be jus tat i'm getting into depression again. okz i noe, i muz get out of it even before i fall in. yepz.
 
sometimes i really think i think too much.. and too unnecessarily.. mebbe i shld htink bout other stuff.. heh
 
:)
 
hmm the background song is a bit.. melancholic. think i shld change it. soon. i hope.
hmm but need to find a replacement first..
 
 
 

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya
 
testing:

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya
 
dun feel like blogging. only came up cuz read in someone's blog tat blogger changed yet again. so came up here to have a look. and lo and behold, now not only can i do the usual stuff, i can also indent, insert bullets, change the font size/colour and even check spelling! haha apparently you can see i dun use tat function much :P
 
hmm i juz discovered that 2 of my sec sch frens are in the cac foc on thursday, when i went down to their sp night. and the more interesting thing is that they're both in the pageant!! hmm actually i wasn't really expecting tat.. i mean ok la.. C is good looking.. but errr D??? there must have been some shortage of good looking guys over there. oh well i'm not v sure. din really take a good look. hmm i sound so bad! ok la i dun mean to say D is ugly.. juz tat i think he's only OK loh..and ok la i guess tats cac foc for you.. always short of cute guys/pretty gals.. haha. i noe cuz my batch was like tat, and so was teh batch after mine.. oopz~ :P
 
and while i'm still on the topic, i juz found out sthg interesting bout one of the pageant gals.. haha wont elaborate here, otherwise someone will kill me for it.... wahahaha! *wink*
 
hmm suddenly i feel like peeling some rose petals.. like ariel in the little mermaid. and incidently, tats my fav childhood cartoon! mebbe i'm childish.. but recently i saw the jigsaw puzzle, and i was qte gian to buy it.. oh well. but i figured it wasnt worth 18 bucks.. heh..
 
anw i'm really glad for one of my close fren whose r/s seems to be recovering pretty well from 3 weeks ago.. think its a good start for more good things to come. go gal! i'm sure you 2 can do it :)
 
haha was thinking bout my graduation in 2 years time, and wondering wat my career wld be. and i'd like to find a job which i like, but i realised its kinda difficult cuz i realised i like slacking/enjoying life the most.. heeeeeez. well the closest "job" tat i can think of is being a tai-tai.. but well rich bfs are kinda hard to find nowadays.. haha. and hmm dun think i'd wanna find one now *wink*
 
k tats it, have been online trying to waste time for too long. shall go zzzzz now. nitez everyone

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya

its very true. wat's very true? i'm talking about the "comfort zone syndrome". my sis and my godbro were juz talking about it last night. they were saying how this syndrome keeps them from changing jobs. (my sis's an air stewardess with sia -- i'm very different from my sis, physically at least -- and my godbro's a mech engineer with saf -- oh he juz got promoted to the rank of major)

for me, its more of inertia to break out of my usual lifestyle, or to break out of my usual thinking habits even tho i know i wont get anywhere with them. like right now, i've got a chance to design something and hence start my portfolio. wanted to make use of my free afternoon today to do it, but in the end, the forecast of silly probs (no ideas, slowing down of comp system) made me procrastinate till now. and still procrastinating. ridiculous right.

mebbe this is an excuse, but i think i need rest. have been on higher than normal drive for teh past 2mths, its time i rested i think. especially now when i need to recuperate for school reopening (it's happening in less than 2 weeks time!!ARRGH!!). cuz term time is a very tiring time for me.. and there'll be no rest until recess. and even then i dun htink i can rest much cuz i'll b busy catchign up on my studies. sigh.

but wat pressures me most is tat i feel guilty bout resting! read in wink and grow rich tat there's a season for everything, and i totally agree. and i guess mebbe now is my autumn time? heez. but there's so many things to do, and i keep feelign guilty bout my never-ending procrastinations.

ok i guess by this time anyone reading htis wld think "y dun this silly gal juz once and for all decide whether she wants to rest or stop procrastinating, wldnt tat solve all the probs.."
i totally agree. and so i shall go meditate on it. haaaaaaaaaa................a bientot, peeps! heh

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya

My japanese name is 秋本 Akimoto (autumn book) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).

tat was for my chinese name..

My japanese name is 秋本 Akimoto (autumn book) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way)

now i know the famous jap singer is called "sylvia" too! :P



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music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya

i'm jus back from bs with weixiu and i feel much better now. ok i havent really sorted out my thinking but now i know when i do try, i will be able to come to some headway i guess. :)

things like work, provision of material needs, contentment..

ya i'm really glad that i'm not alone in "Narrow-way".. otherwise i'll easily fall off the track..

hmm and today is kinda sweet :)

my life is still changed, the challenges are still there, but now i'm sure that i will not be left alone to handle them. for i know i'm being taken care of :)

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya

hmm actually i blogged a few days ago.. but no matter wat i do (refresh, clear cache and refresh, try to view from blogger) i dun see the post on my page.. i think there's somethign wrong with blogger. ...

have been playing isketch recently. its kinda addictive... hehe
go www.isketch.net to play it.

really alot of changes to my life lately. i pray that He will give me strength and wisdom and guidance and watever else i need to lead me through and keep my feet firmly on the ground..

music of the moment: Day Without Rain by Enya

hmm time has passed by so fast!!! its been.. how long?? i suspect its been more than one week since i last blogged.. hmm..

anw had qte a sweet friday last week :) i guess its true.. its not the htings tats done.. but the desire to do those things. its teh heart tat matters..hmm it sounds hugely familiar..............*winkz*

hmm.. qte a few doubts/insecurities came up to me these 2 days.. dun think i shld igore them, rather i shld think bout them, but at teh same time, have courage and confidence to see past them, have a wider perspective. :)

hmm i like to see things in a proactive way.. y brood over things and let it affect your day?? i'd prefer happier, brighter days.. either i change myself to suit my env, or i change the env to suit me. the keyword is change! if i can't/dunno how to solve them myself, i'd ask for advice.. helps most of the time.. :)

hmm htink i shld go slp soon.. havent been slping before 4 nowadays.. heh