a post that i typed but din post a few weeks ago..


SURPRISE!!! i'm BACK!! bet all of you didnt expect me to post entries, ever again.

well, i dunno y but i juz feel like writing about some thought tat i had just now.. and mebbe the fact that i'm kinda stressed over work contributes to teh blogging mood as well..

you noe, i htink i'm crazy.. i'm currently watching htis bridal channel on the internet where they show dozens and dozens of bridal fashion shows, real weddings, weddign tips, and things to buy for your wedding... haa..and i'm glued to the computer screen now lke i'm glued to teh tv.. the gowns juz wow me.. tey're so pretty!! i've seen a few that i'l really like to wear on my wedding.. and i' boggled by the many things tat you can/shd by for a wedding.. like wedding favours (i din even noe wats tat!! do you??), table placement cards tat guests can bring home as souvenirs.. etc.. i wonder how much those weddings featured in this channel cost.. haha..

but i'm crazy to be watching htis channel now.. cuz its not like i'm getting married anytime soon.. in fact.. i'm kinda depressed over my love life.. its been so messy these past few months.. actually, i havent had a smoothsailing rship since my first one.. i wonder why He is putting me through all these.. mebbe every guy tat comes romanticaly into my life is a test for me.. and i keep failing all the tests?? haa dunno wat i' talking about.. or am i just meant to lead a life free of romantic relationships??

right now i'm facing some problems with this guy.. and i feel so helpless.. there are so many things that i'm upset about..i suspect alot of times i'm just being sensitive and over demanding.. but am i really wrong to want to be loved/pampered by the person i love?? after all, EVERY gal needs pampering.. (it just depends on how much and in wat way the gal wld prefer) and mebbe i shldnt expect him to love me the way i love him..

haizzz...all these times my friends have been there to support me..thanks to all of you.. i really apreciate it.. =D

anw, back to the topic... i was wondering why pp spend so much time and effort on their wedding..which is just one day and which will be followed by back-to-normal life (esp for caucasians who mostly live with their partners before marriage). but now i think i know..guess the only reason that i'll want to make it special would be cuz i'm holding it with the someone i love.. its just like why i really enjoyed gg to the URA (urban redevelopment authority)..you noe?

i used to think pp make their weddign special juz cuz its the norm to do so.. now i think mebbe not..