today is not a very good day.

first, i lost 6-0 at solitaire showdown on msn. but ok, i won 2-1 at minesweeper with the same guy. i mean, ya i noe its juz a game. but its juz not a good feeling when you KEEP losing.. esp when they're not close fights.

then, i withdrew out of a dance competition.. i was actually looking forward to it, took some time searching for a partner and even trained 5 dyas out of 7 this week juz for it.. but.. today my partner came back from aceh (yup the place in indonesia), and i juz realised.. we really cannot make it for the competition. i dunno y, but i juz cannot dance well when i'm dancing with him. plus he's not confident at all too, he says he's lost EVERYTHING (ie dance techniques, feel, routine) in one week. i'm really confused now, the feelings are akin to when a breakup happens, without hte heartache (eh but NO i dun feel anything for him.. not at all). i mean ya i AM disappointed. but only cuz i dun get to compete. not cuz i'm not competing WITH HIM, i'm sure you all get wat i mean.

so. twice in a week i've initiated a break off of some kind. now i'm wondering... is there anythign wrong with me? y do i keep breaking off?? izzit juz cuz i'm pampered, i dun wanna try harder when things are not exactly perfect?

but i did..........i tried for so long. its juz that somethings no matter how hard you try, your patience wears thin.