!!!!!!!!!!!!!!EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!

finally my exams are over............besides 3 papers spread out over 2 weeks, i also survived 3 consecutive days of papers.. fluids, management of product development and electrics/electronics (epm).. all heavy weight papers mind you.... hmmm but sadly i think i have a HIGH chance of failing the last two ones.. cuz by the end of my fluids, i was already in holiday mood.. dunno y, was quite tired out by the fluids, so din really have the drive to continue on with prod devt and epm. and the worse thing was, i felt tat the epm paper was easy.. so i guess many pp's gonna score very well and becuz of the bell curve (which helps us most times but harms us sometimes), i'm gonna fail it. arrrgh!!! gonna lose my honours, at the last lap. haiz. more time and money gonna be spent too. if my school fees were like in $50 per sem, of cuz i wldnt be upset. but we're talking about a few thousands here... =(

shucks y am i so negative. cannot cannot..cannot be negative..if so negative then how to find job? hmmm but actually i'm not being negative, i'm juz being realistic.and actually i'm not really bothered by it lar, cuz i always noe He has a good plan for me, plans to prosper me, and not harm me. =) but its juz tat i dun like to deceive myself tat things are nice and perfect, i uphold authenticity, within ourselves, within our relationships and within our perspectives. to be realistic is to face truth headon, and not to deceive ourselves or run away from problems. but tats where the similarity with pessimism ends. becuz facing truth does not mean being intimidated by it. it does not mean losing hope.

hmmm i seem to be contradicting a recent post of mine. but well, it takes courage to face the truth.. sometimes i have enough, sometimes i dun. haaa..but i noe watever probs tat i m running away from, i have to face it sooner or later.

ehh wld like to blog more, in the mood to do so but gotta go off now.. till the next entry~