referring to laser beams, my m462 prof said today, "There will always divergence, it is just whether you can tolerate it."

and it struck me, how full of truth tat sentence was....

why am i doing this to myself...??

juz wanna drop a note of appreciation to all those who have egged me on to finish my fyp asap from time to time.. thanks guys, i will. =D

"The ancients used to convey "love" with a combination of three pictographs.

The overall construction of the word is deeply meaningful when one considers how the pictographs for "breath" and "heart" are positioned above the "friend" pictograph.

Is this because we believe love to be a breath of life to the heart, built on a foundation of friendship?"




~ from www.tigerbeer.de

if i am a material, i guess i wld...

have a very low modulus of elasticiy..

have a very low yield strength..

exhibit a high amount of plastic deformation...

be approaching necking point..

and be prone to strain hardening.

as for my tensile strength.. well.. i really dun wanna noe....ever.

Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

ya! tats it! a quiet passion... i like. =)



hmmmm but i htink purple pupils look a bit scary. hehz...

Your Birthdate: January 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

aiya i super no confidence one.. heh.. and i dun get bored by mundane tasks.. i'd rather have boring jobs than stressful jobs anytime manz. heh. hmmm and shld i change my name to Xylvia????? hahahhaa............hmmm idea eh..

Your Birthdate: January 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

aiya i super no confidence one.. heh.. and i dun get bored by mundane tasks.. i'd rather have boring jobs than stressful jobs anytime manz. heh. hmmm and shld i change my name to Xylvia????? hahahhaa............hmmm idea eh..

doubts. fears. low confidence. disappointment. asphyxiation. wild tots. fears again.
disillusioned.


pain...in the shoulder and.. somewhere else..

from the blog of a fren of jasmine's:

"Desperate and helpless and longing, I cried.
Patiently, lovingly, my Lord replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate;
And the Master so gently said,
'Child, you must wait.'

'Wait? You said wait?' my indignant reply.
'Lord, I need answers. I need to know why.'
Is Your hand shortened or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming Your Word.

'My future and all to which I can relate.
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me wait.
I'm needing a yes, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a no to which I can resign.

'And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry,
I'm weary of asking, I need a reply.'

Then quietly, softly, I learnt of my fate
As my Master replied once again, 'You must wait.'
So I slumped in my chair defeated and thought,
and grumbled to God, 'so I'm waiting for what?'

He seem then to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, 'I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun;
I could raise the dead, cause the mountains to run.

'All you seek I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depths of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

'You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove.
You'd know that I give and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

'The glow of My comfort late in the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked of an infinite God
Who makes what you have last.

'And you'd never know, should your pain quickly free,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dreams for that loved one overnight may come true,
But oh the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

'So be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though often may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious of all is still, Wait."

darn. and i told myself i'll get back to my laptop before nightfall.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

hmmm really??? and i tot i was like an open book.. so boring. and i'm logical and detached meh?? and i always tot pp think i look dao.. haa..

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate. At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating. When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism. In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative. Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels. You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

The Birth Order Predictor

right about the 2nd born.. heh.. and looks like i m really in the wrong course..

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

and i tot i was more boyish... i think i grew to be more girly over the years.. or shld i say.. more womanly.. heh heh..

Today is a happy day.. cuz I met 2 of the few pp that I like most.. hehe.

I finally met rainne today, after weeks of saying that we'll meet each other. Really had a good time catching up with her, and glad tat her crazy working hours hasn't caused her to look any less pretty than she was before she graduated. But more importantly, im glad that months of not meeting up hasnt eroded the frenship between us, despite our shared characteristic of being "high maintenance" in relationships (that means we need to keep contact with pp often to stay connected to them). But it was a pity that we cld only meet for 2 hours tho, otherwise we cld have shared more. The blame goes to my fyp. Haiz.

Anw, we ate lunch at subway. Its having a promotion.. if you order the "hot" sandwich, which is basically the same sandwich but toasted, you'll get a free upgrade to the meal, which includes a drink, and either 2 cookies or 1 pack of chips.

After the wonderful lunch, I went home for a short while to do my fyp before meeting him. Havent been meeting him too often nowadays, as he is ultra busy these few weeks - and of cuz I haven't been too free either, wat with my fyp and 7 other deadlines in 3 weeks..faintz. And hey I din noe that if we put 2 asterisks around a word, tat word becomes bold in Microsoft Word, and juz to digress, the French name for "word" is mot, and back to the topic on hand - yup he is indeed really so busy his days are super duper packed. So packed that one sms per day is the max that he can send to 8133 xxxx. So mentally tired that he forgets how nice small hands can feel. And so fatigued that holding more than one file in his hands is a problem. Haiz, he is so ke lian now. And he has to endure this for at least 2 more weeks.. or shld I say he has to endure this for another 2 months. Cuz after 2 weeks the heat will still be on, juz tat it will come from another place. But i'm sure he will emerge stronger, yes? And yes I have to endure these 2 months too.. and actually I’m kinda apprehensive about wat happens beyond these 2 months.. will I get a job I like? Will I even get a job in the first place?

Anw, back to the topic of meeting him..i keep digressing. we had wanted to watch a movie, but strangely there wasnt any good timing for the movies we wanted to watch. And there were no other decent movies when we went. So we decided to just shop around for his shoes, but tat was a fruitless trip too. Like the last few times tat we met up, he was deadbeat and needed to find a place to stone. and since I wasn’t hit by the shopping urge then, we wandered around.. wandered, wandered and wandered to wheelock place. Cldnt find any nice stoning places, so the next natural thing to do was to eat dinner. We ate sakae sushi, and he treated me. For no special occasion, and even tho we have exceeded the mid-class food consumption rate that he'd prefer to have. Thanks dear, that's sweet of you..

And of cuz I ate my favourite japanese dish.. the fried tofu in some sauce and garnished by fish flakes (so I was told). Wld eat it whenever I have the chance. A pity it seems that we dun share the same food taste, so he cldnt appreciate it as much as I did. But well I din really appreciate sashimi too.

Yup tats about all tat we did…we went home after the dinner. I mean, he sent me back home, before meeting his client. tats another nice thing he did today. So for today we spent a short but precious 3 hours.. which translates to a short but precious 6 hours for this week.




The green tea icecream was eaten fairly quickly. But why use allegory? Shy? Din wanna cause hurt? or juz dun wanna face up to the truth?

and happy birthday to my mom!

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Should You Date?

wow........ this is interesting..... very interesting indeed... heh.......

You Are a Skin Deep Sweetheart

You may be supermodel gorgeous or a plain Jane. It really doesn't matter, because you're confident and secure. You don't go out looking like a slob, but you are low maintenance. You have better things to worry about than whether your nails are the right shade!

Are You Obsessed With Your Looks?

yup i agree.. hehe..