music of the moment: Love Divine, All Loves Excelling

oohh...changed a few of the songs.. din change some of them cuz cldn't bear to..hmmz..anw.. No Me Digas Por Favor is a song which i danced to qte frequently last time.. a while back i'd miss those times qte alot.. but recently i discovered tat somethings dun really matter to me anymore.. and i've let go of some stuffs.. is it a pity? i dunno..

wah.. juz 6 days left to exams! how how.. havent finished revision.. not even halfway through! dunno y but i take super long to finish one online lecture..
i mean i havent been really doing other things too.. at most like 15min break every erm 15 min? oh wait i tink i noe y i take so long liao.. haha...

hmmz finding it hard to concentrate nowadays.. every little while i'll get restless.. i mean last time i used to be able to study at least 45 min at a stretch..

i wonder if it is cuz of my terrible lifestyle nowadays... i can't rem the last time tat i slept at 12 plus...... terrible terrible.... i mean.. as xj says.. its not a requirement anymore.. but a habit! and a TERRIBLY BAD habit at tat.. sighz.. it takes years to form a good habit but days.. or even moments .. to destroy it.. as the saying goes: bai3 nian2 shu4 ren2... guess i juz have to keep on trying.. juz like i have to keep on trying to be punctual.......

but i think its more of a matter of my mentality.. like everynight at 12 midnight i'd feel like the night has juz started??? i mean how ridiculous can this be...........

anw was talking to E juz now.. online.. seems like he has this habit of not asking pple for help.. juz like Re.. i admit i'm juz the opp.. finding help whenever i run into trouble and i guess some pple find me a nuisance cuz of it =p yeah i noe i shld be more independent and cause less trouble for everyone.. and i'm trying to be less dependent on people now.. and i think i'm improving ald k..
anw tats not the main pt.. the pt is.. i think altho its good to be independent, but i think its qte ptless to insist on trying to solve probs by myself everytime *hmmz i tink its the best adj i can use for this at this pt in time.. can't think of better ones.*.. as in, i believe in the saying tat no man is an island, and tat we are limited in some ways or other.. and i believe the world is not such a cold place after all..
so. in other words, i think by insisting on not asking for help everytime.. its like being so myopic.. like you're unaware of/denying your own limitations, you're unaware of/denying the sincere desire of your frens to lend you a helping hand.. or you juz dun give trust to them.. you dun trust tat they love and care for you, such tat they dun mind sacrificing *at least* a bit of their time/efforts etc... then.. wats the point of calling them your frens?? for i think frens are pple who give mutual care and support.. its ideally both ways.. if its juz one way.. then i htink the frenship wont b as strong..

hmm this is juz my impromptu take.. mebbe i'll refine it some other day..
late le.. better go slp before i start going back to thinking tat 4am is still not so late.. heh..