music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*



saw this cute pic on the internet somewhere..reminds me of the days when i kept hamsters. my hamsters were as cute as these two, but well i guess all hamsters are as cute. =p hmmz a pity tat they died early.. i think they died due to psychological stress.. =|

(oh think the white one is a pudding.. as in, the breed..cute names for breeds of hamsters eh? hehe)

music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*


when i still havent permed my hair...
oh and the pic in hte RHS bar links to my photo album.. guess will upload more photos in time to come *wink*

music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*

oh yay i managed to hit the publish button before i cld chicken out. haha

anw have really learnt to treasure frens these few months..really touched by frens' sacrficices, to help me in one way or another... also dunno wat i can do in return.. =|

gosh think i'm getting too serious and too emotional liao. hmmzzz.
watever.

so late ald. i htink i'll juz slp.. wont study anymore.. if i study more, i'll slp less and possibly end up with a blank mind when i attempt the quiz tmr. if i dun study, well i guess i'll end up witha blank mind too. so whether i study or not i'll end up with a blank mind. might as well go slp now and not waste time resting. after all its mcq. i've got 25% chance of getting it correct anw. haha.

music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*

hihi i'm back..been a few days w/out blogging liao eh..

think i sorta forgot my motivation tat caused me to start a blogging website..... tats y havent been really blogging.. and also cuz been bz with work..but i realised that's not an excuse not to blog, cuz i'll ALWAYS be busy. so if i only blog when i'm not busy, i htink i'll never blog. heh. so here goes.

anw speaking of motivation to start this blog, shall juz them share with everyone. If i havent mentioned before, or if you havent already realised, i started blogging cuz
1. wanted to keep in touch with frens, so tat all of you who are interested to may noe wats gg on in my life since i dun get to see all of you everyday :(
2. to let all of my frens noe more about me, wat i think, wat i like
3. to let me understand myself more ie to find myself as expressed at the top of the rhs bar, and to find out wat my perspectives are ie to grow(sounds narcissistic eh? :p)
4. to improve my communication skills which i think i'm really lacking in

yeah those are my motivation to start blogging.. but i realised after i started to blog, wat made me keep coming back to blog is not so much of all the above anymore.. rather i come back cuz of my success in tweaking with the template of the blog despite the lack of knowledge and experience of the prog lang. kinda proud of it and so wanted to achieve more.. tweaking more stuff.. so i come back only because i have, in hyperscorpic's words, become a "script kiddie". *btw he has a brand new website up. interesting.. worth one, if not many visits. check out the perspectives..its (delicious) food for tot :)*

but now that my enthusiasm for scripts has waned a little, i've come back to thinking bout my original reasons for blogging.. and i realised, yeah i havent been writing much bout my tots nowadays... and tat kinda defeats the purpose of setting up a blog right??????

anw sometimes there are events/things which i can blog about but i dun. i realise its cuz they're things which i dun really want to think about. things tat make me unhappy.. and coincidently qte a few of them are related to dsa. heh. dsa.. really problematic.. at least for my batch.. heh. anw back to my pt.. tat i think i'm an escapist?? heh.. have done tat qte a lot of times. think its kinda bad leh... think i'll think bout being an escapist some other time..haha.

i'm constantly escaping from a lot of stuff. besides escaping from thinking whether i shld continue escaping, i'm also escaping from studyign for my test which is gg to start in 5 hrs time, 3 of which will be spent slping if i go to bed now.

i realise i'm taking a risk by writing all this down. but well. i'm honest with myself and with the whole world. dun like to be a hypocrite. and i try not to deceive myself. i was ald prepared to take this risk right from the moment i started an account with blogger anw. so there.

think i should really think bout how i can stop escaping.. but there seems to be no time.. hmmz think i noe how come i keep escaping liao..

this post is really terrible. mebbe i'll delete it after some time. mebbe i wont, like all the other posts which i tot bout deleting but din in the end. oh well. htink i'll juz continue taking the risk ba.

hmmz htink the reason y this post is so terrible is partly cuz of my general mood nowadays and partly cuz of hte time i'm writing this. therefore not in the usual frame of mind, whether right or not. heh.

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music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*

music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*

juz now went to read a fren's webbie.. brought back some memories.......caused a slight heartache..

realised that all of us have changed.. the rships between me and my close frens have changed too.. i miss the late night talks that me and ex-rmie used to share, and the daily concern from a fren whom i seldom talk to now..

have drifted from so many a fren....... either due to our busy schedules.. or cuz of other regretful factors.....

there will be many pple in your life, but who makes an impact? who's there to pick you up when you fall, who's there to encourage you and help you see further?? who's there to help you grow, who's there to accept all the flaws in you? and who's there to love you? For they are God's blessings to all of us..

Frens..i have learnt to treasure them, but have not learnt to stop them from drifting..and tats possibly the greatest pity in frenships..

music of the moment: AnOtheR number in Love Actually OST *luurrve that sound track =D*

heez yeah i've added alot of music to this page! besides the background music you can see alot of new links on the rhs bar! but ok its a bit stupid cuz only ntu students can access the music.. and even then you may have to wait for qte a while after logging in before you can hear the music..

hmmz really paiseh to restrict listening of music to only ntu students.. not tat i'm biaised k.. juz tat i stored the music in the webspace that ntu gives us.. and which only ntu students can access..and its the only hting i can think of to put music on my site w/out paying a fee everymonth for webspace....

so anw, the music on the rhs bar are all my favs at one point or another in my life.. some of the songs are really simple.. and may not b attractive at all in the first listening.. but listen carefully, and you will realise the lyrics, or even juz the arrangement of the songs (arrangement meaning the assignment of instruments) makes teh music worth listening to.. "absence of fear" is one v good eg.. it was my absolute fav at one pt in time.. its a quiet but highly emotional piece of music..or shld i say it is through the quietness of the song tat one can feel the deep, abiding love.. *hmmz sounds familiar eh?? =p* hmmz you go listen then you noe la huh (oops paiseh to all non-ntu students again!) anw will be changing the songs regularly to include other of my favs too =)

hmmz update on my iife.. yest was april fool's thank gdness din kenna any major silly prank by frens.. only got 1 sms from a long time platonic fren who pretended to have a crush on me.. heh.. din really fall for it tho =p

hmm and its leslie's death annivesary..time passes so fast! feels like juz last sem that he passed away. anw to all the lesli fans out there: take heart! his music lives forever (too bad i'm not a fan so no chances to hear his music here =p)

sighz exams coming soon but all my study time has been taken up by assignments and presentations lately. hope i can catch up in time...

*yawn* getting slpy.. think i'll retire

hmmz ok realised i made a spelling mistake in the prev blog.. its "summarise", not "summerise".. hahaha.. i guess its got to do with my icecream trip to cafe cartel yesterday...

hehe cuz there was a "summerise" on the menu.. then i guess teh word sorta got stuck in my head.. haha. n i keep mixing it up with "sunset boulevard". which is my fav icecream flavour in cafe cartel, and possibly in all the icecream shops i've been to.. hmmz yeah a close fight with "nuts about you" in haagan dazs....

yepz yepz "sunset boulevard", my fav icecream, consists of vanilla icecream with kiwi and mandarin orange.. ( i'm a vanilla and fruits person! =D ) so yeah i guess all you chocolate pple wont like this..

and cafe cartel is my fav cafe! decent ambience, great food! havent tried all.. but most of the food and drinks have been delicious! recommendations are of cuz "sunset" for icecream (hmm cant do any recommendations for the choc based icecreams cuz i havent tried any), "blush" for drinks (there're other great thirst-quenching concoctions but i forgot the names), garlic bread for snacks, "in the field" for pasta (cream) and generally all their pan-fried linguine are nice.. for their main courses, i prefer teh ocean variety.....

heez actually i'm sure all of you wont b able to remember all the above recommendations.. so next time you wanna go cafe cartel juz jio me along then i can help you choose..commission v cheap, juz the meal will do.....=P

anw, really glad i came out yest night.. enjoyed the icecream and the quietness.. =)

hmm was listening to some songs a few days back.. brought back alot of memories.. really nice songs btw.. wanted to share some of them but seems like i can only share songs tat are wma... cuz only wma songs can "invoke" the IE windows meda player on your comps. ah well.

WAH i have been away for soooooooooooo long.......... heh hope its still not deserted yet... =p

hmmz i guess reason y i've not been blogging.. is cuz i was kinda depressed.. so kinda lost interest in everything.. including blogging........

dunno y i was depressed too.. i guess its the addition of all the disappointments in my life........disappointed in myself mostly....for those who have been following my blog closely (at least before i started the season of blogging-drought) you'd have suspected it i guess..
and the fact that i was disappointed in myself din really help much.. its like eventually i came to this state where i was sad cuz i was sad... you noe like "sighz, my life is in such a sad state"..its like, i pity myself for having such a sad life.. so.. in a way.. the sadness perpetuates...heh......*hmmz i hope wat i juz typed is understandable*

anw thx for your consolations k...shows tat at least i still have frens who care..... sobz~ *touched, tats y the sob*
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anw actually qte alot of interesting things have happened in the past one week.. if not for my depression i guess i'd have qte alot of things to write.

wanted to juz summerise the stuff but think i dun even have time to do tat..

think i muz go home do assigment liao.. which is due 2 days later and which was supposed to be done in the course of 12 weeks.. hahahaa....... =p for those of you in the know, its the m285 assig..

yepz.. dunno when i'll blog again.. hope it will b soon. heh...

erm btw, regarding the "my fav music" link, or any link here tat leads you to the signing into ntu gemsweb, do not be surprised if you get an invalid page on first try. you muz refresh the page.. ya realised i forgot to say.. heh oh well i hope all of you have figured tho.. =p

anw rainne has juz described her workload for these 2 weeks. which is like. really ridiculous. meant for the superhumanbeing. heh. poor gal ah her.. anw shall keep stock here also: next week - 1 assignment (which i havent start and which is supposed to be done in 10 weeks) 1 presentation (which we havent even chosen the topic for). next next week: 1 test. heeeeeeez sounds really relaxing compared to rainne's lehz. i shld feel ashamed of myself.. heh. dunno where my time has gone to also.. yeah but then altho relaxing you'll see me die a slow and terrible death from 22nd April to 7th May.. 7 papers to go k.. *dying*

sighz i still have quiz first thing in teh morn tmr.. and i havent been gg for tat tuts and lec AT ALL!!! dun even have complete set of notes =p but then its my 2nd quiz for this subj ald.... and te first quiz.. think if lucky still can pass.. i hope it will b so for the one tmr too =p

hey pple! orisinal has another new game! go take a look... haaa..

hmm i noticed that there seems to be some prob with the counting of teh pirouettes by enetation.. either tat or someone did a pirouette but it wasn't reflected.. anw juz to make sure, when you all do pirouettes, pls rem to type your nick in the identification field..otherwise the pirouettes window will blank out.. a tip: when it does hang, juz press alt key and the left arrow at teh same time. this is teh shortcut for the "back" button. so conversely the shortcut for the "forward" button is alt+right arrow lohz. heh.

sighz the channel u wkend primetime show "love is beautiful" (more commonly known as wu2 tou2 dong1 gong1) has ended... altho it was really kinda cheesy, not to mention that there were alot of loopholes and parts which were unaccounted for in the script, overall it was really qte engaging.. feel like slapping the evil chuchu everytime she does sthg evil.. (which is actually most of the time) heh..