I AM BACK!!!! yesh no worries my dear readers, all's well with the queen of - err... which word rhymes with "well"... err dell?? since i'm applying for position in dell.. ok nvm.. all's well with your favourite belle :p

yup, have been so busy since the end of exams. which is ironic isnt it? im' supposed to be having my holidays now.

but i guess, precisely its my holidays, tats y i've been gg out with friends more often.. but cuz i'm also having my GE, and tying up the loose ends of my fyp, im' really up to teh neck with activities.

lets see.. what have i done in teh past 2 weeks? oh wait, its actually 3 weeks since the end of the exams... been so caught up in activities that i've lost track of time..

hmmmm i went out with mouse, rainne, serene, jeffrey, shao, long, xiu, angelus and the ny clique, raymond, dawn, ruizhen, michael, and attended a bday party of one of my dance frens.. Not in order of preference, choronological sequence, frequency or anything else. hmmm did i miss anyone out??? and more to come include jc gathering, church camp, gg out with yugui, and my twinkie group. haha i seem to be gg out alot.. but actually for most of the pp in teh list i hve only gone out w them once in teh last 3 weeks. yup.. so have room for more, so dun let anything stop you from having a catch up session w me ya? hee......but hmm do let me noe a week in advance, so i can leave tat time slot for you. :)

oops i sound like i think i'm so popular.. disclaimer: tat is not the case.. i'm really juz an antisocial, weird and dao brat who really needs to do less things alone. haha.

moving on from meeting up with frens, i have also recently juz got a new hairstyle (haha i paid $126 to have a neater head of hair), started (but not ended, hee!) shopping in the GSS (great singapore sale, for the uninitiated) , gone back to dancing (learnign waltz every tues and fri now, ooooh i'm so excited at teh tot of it!), and started a regular swimming routine. i'm aiming for at least once everyweek, but so far only 2 weeks have passed so i cant really comment on my consistency yet haha.

hmmm after the stock take i realise why i feel like i have been neglectign my work.. becuz tat is really the case!! haha....not tat i havent been doing my fyp and ge, of cuz, in fact those 2 are the reasons why i'm back in school now.. bleah. have been busy with fyp even after the presentation cuz of some modifications required by my moderator. then needed to submit my abstract to the library as well.. as for my ge, needed to do presentation, write up, which is due very soon but which i havent done. haa.

not tat i'm complainign about my GE tho.. cuz seems lke we've got a watered down version of the GE as compared to the sessions held in normal term. (i'm taking it now, which is the special sem I) compared to the normal sessions, which got much less presentatins and essays to write (juz one presentation and essay to write for me), but more field trips. in the short span of 4 weeks, we've had 3 days of field trips, and in those 3 days 5 destinations. ie Urban Redevelopment Authority, Jurong Town Corporation Summit, Biopolis@one north, the industrial estates under JTC, and Jurong Island. really enjoyed myself in those field trips, they were so informative. i feel like i noe more about sg now.. there's more to this tiny red dot on teh map than juz shoppign centres, schools, housing estates.. offices.. i've a *slightly* wider perspective of the urban landscape in sg now (the ge's title is sthg like "urban planning and landscapign sg")

speaking of which, i even discovered that there're FREE HOLLYWOOD movie screenings at biopolis auditorium every month! ya they managed to convert the auditorium into a movie theatre..with good sound, good seats (no lovers' seats tho). and its really free admission, even for the public. i even saw a teenage couple there lo. obviously not biopolis staff. not bad ya.. juz tat biopolis, which is at buona vista, is a bit far for pp who live in teh east, and also teh movies they show wil most likely be those tat were screened slightly earlier.. for eg they screened juz like heaven 3 days ago. teh movie was shown islandwide somewhere in dec last year. oh i muz mention the parks in biopolis too.. in the daytime they make biopolis a great place to work in, and in teh night time, its juz perfect for a quiet stroll with erm a good company. cuz the landscaping is good, and cuz its on top of a hill you get a fairly good view downhill, which is the buona vista/holland v area. the ambience is juz right for a bit of waltz-ing, heh heh..oh click here to check the schedule of the movie screenings.. oh i realise they show the world cup too. heh heh.. do go and check the place out if you have time and happen to be in the west area..

wow i have blogged so much.. i think i shld get back to writing my resume for dell, and gettign started on the writeup for my ge.. heh heh.. and of cuz, prepare for my presentation for tmr morning.. urrgh its strange how i'm always bloggign when i'm supposed to be busiest with work. heh..

take care guys.. till the next post..

i feel sad............

why do i feel so sad.......

why am i hanging on????

not like i havent been through this before..

why do i feel worse this time...



but.. i'm okie.. no point being not ok...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!

finally my exams are over............besides 3 papers spread out over 2 weeks, i also survived 3 consecutive days of papers.. fluids, management of product development and electrics/electronics (epm).. all heavy weight papers mind you.... hmmm but sadly i think i have a HIGH chance of failing the last two ones.. cuz by the end of my fluids, i was already in holiday mood.. dunno y, was quite tired out by the fluids, so din really have the drive to continue on with prod devt and epm. and the worse thing was, i felt tat the epm paper was easy.. so i guess many pp's gonna score very well and becuz of the bell curve (which helps us most times but harms us sometimes), i'm gonna fail it. arrrgh!!! gonna lose my honours, at the last lap. haiz. more time and money gonna be spent too. if my school fees were like in $50 per sem, of cuz i wldnt be upset. but we're talking about a few thousands here... =(

shucks y am i so negative. cannot cannot..cannot be negative..if so negative then how to find job? hmmm but actually i'm not being negative, i'm juz being realistic.and actually i'm not really bothered by it lar, cuz i always noe He has a good plan for me, plans to prosper me, and not harm me. =) but its juz tat i dun like to deceive myself tat things are nice and perfect, i uphold authenticity, within ourselves, within our relationships and within our perspectives. to be realistic is to face truth headon, and not to deceive ourselves or run away from problems. but tats where the similarity with pessimism ends. becuz facing truth does not mean being intimidated by it. it does not mean losing hope.

hmmm i seem to be contradicting a recent post of mine. but well, it takes courage to face the truth.. sometimes i have enough, sometimes i dun. haaa..but i noe watever probs tat i m running away from, i have to face it sooner or later.

ehh wld like to blog more, in the mood to do so but gotta go off now.. till the next entry~

i think im getting flabby... and fat........ at the wrong areas. arrgh. one of my frens commented that one good thing about exams is that they help us to lose weight. tats not true for me. i need to munch when i'm stressed, tats y i need tidbits when studying. which also means, if i were to study outside, i'd prefer to study in cafes/canteens rather than in libraries.

and i wanna say, i din forget.. im juz protecting myself..

how long more???? how long more before this exam ends???

these few days, i have gained some experiences, experiences of how far 300km is, and how hard a wooden block feels to a soft warm heart.

i have underestimated my knowledge of fluids. i look at my notes and discover many alien things. i spur myself to make sense of them, i implore my notes to let me understand them, both to no avail.

it is at times like these that my mind wanders, and my heart follows. but they are both lost, or rather, they do not want to find themselves, for they are afraid of answering questions. eg, questions that ask them to find the pressure at the end of the adiabatic pipe with friction (tats a fanno flow, btw), and other types of questions.


numbness sets in...........i shall attempt to befriend my fluids notes again.

phew! today has been a tumultous day for me. but thanks to His grace and providence, everything was sorted out in teh end.

it started off with a disgusting sight i saw on my way to school. was on my way to teh bus-stop and through my peripheral vision, saw this little boy (i presume) doing his business by the side of the pavement i was walking on. he had his shorts pulled down to about his knees (cldnt ascertain the details cuz upon noticing the sight, i immediately pretended to be too busy smsing to realise anything) but the worse thing was, he was facing the pavement, not away from it in a half squatting position. means if i actually turned my head in his direction (which i definitely din, of cuz) i wld have an almost full frontal view of everything. my goodness. in fact actually i cant really say he cld be excused by his juvenility cuz i seemed to see sthg black down there, means he shld have been past puberty???! on the other hand his height was like a child. but well, i shall give him the benefit of the doubt. but anw thankfully i only had a v unclear view through the corner of my eye, and it only lasted for less than sec cuz i immediately looked away so din see anything. so only suffered minimal visual pollution. heh. but strangely i was abnormally calm, when i shdnt be, cuz in a way i was almost exposed to indecent behaviour by some adult male??? i juz pretended to be oblivious and continued walking to the bus-stop
w/out missing a beat. in fact when i got to the bus-stop i saw a lady looking at me, with juz a slight hint of weird expression on her face but i continued to pretend nothing was amiss. a while later i stole a glance back at where i spotted the sight, but thankfully i was spared teh awkward sight cuz the "child" was no longer there. for a moment i tot mebbe i was imagining things but a subsequent whiff of the smell of fertilizers confirmed otherwise. heh. oh well. i really do hope it was a boy there, but still, given his height he shld be at least 9 yrs old? tat's ald too old for doing business in public isnt it? and i hope he din cause any stress to any other lady.

soon after i got on the bus, my nose started behaving like a malfunctioned tap. kept on sneezing and blowing my nose. thankfully i ate lunch shortly after, so gained some energy to prevent it from being worse.

i got to school and started to finish up my fyp project. in fact i juz needed to type the contents page, print the whole thing out, photocopy the appendix, and bind the whole lot together. i estimated a maximum of 1 hour to do tat, but in the end it took me 3 whole hours. why? cuz

firstly, i discovered that detection of my thumbdrive by my comp was lost midway. i couldnt save teh work that i opened from my thumbdrive, neither back into the thumbdrive, nor onto the desktop. the comp kept telling me that there was insufficient space to do tat. subsequently i discovered that the things in my thumbdrive all disappeared. immediately i tot the thumbdrive i was using had been corrupted, AGAIN. (yes its the 2nd time that happened to me in a sem, and no this wasnt the thumbdrive tat died on me the first time. haiz dunno y i keep having this thing with thumbdrives.) i also realised i may not be able to submit my report today after all. i cld still print the thigns that were open on the comp, but there were other things to be included tat was lost together with the rest of the data in the thumbdrive. so i had to redo them, and i wld take at least 3 hours to do that, which is more than the time i had to submit the report. so i called up my prof and told him teh "good" news. well he sounded ok about me extending the deadline (again), not angry at all. i'm thinking whether he was hiding any daggers behind tat frenly exterior, like "yeah be a bad gal for all you want, i'll juz deduct marks from your report when i mark it" or was it juz cuz he was too used to my bad gal behaviour and was expecting me to extend the deadline anw?

and together with teh prob of not being able to submit my fyp on time, was the complication that actually this thumbdrive wasnt mine.. it was lent to me by someone (to provide a temporary substitution for tat first thumbdrive tat died on me) and all his stuff was inside! i was qte lost then, and needed some help. initially wanted to call him, but he's been kinda busy lately and i have this feeling he wldnt really like to be disturbed so din really feel inclined to trouble him unless absolutely necessary. so i called up my project mate, and he suggested that i get another thumbdrive and save the work tat was open on the comp before it got lost as well, and to try the dead thumbdrive on another comp to see if the data can be read there. as i was alone and thus had no one else to borrow thumbdrive from, he helped me borrow a thumbdrive from his fren who was in the lib as well.

so i got another thumbdrive, but it wasnt of much use cuz again there wasnt enough memory to save it into the thumbdrive. and things took a turn for the worse when again the comp suddenly cldnt detect the new thumbdrive even tho it was plugged into the comp. it disappeared from windows explorer altogether, altho the hardware was still happily blinking away from the comp's usb port. somehow i also cldnt "safely remove" it from the comp. which means, i'm stuck with another possibly dead thumbdrive, which again, wasnt mine. =S i called up my proj mate again and this time he was at a loss too. for a moment i really cldnt think of wat else to do, then, i tot mebbe i cld log off and hopefully the comp can regenerate the data in the thumbdrives tat were plugged into it. and tats wat i did, and thank goodness, the new thumbdrive recovered =D. but my fren's thumbdrive still seemed empty =|however, this time, i cld safely remove both of them.

i changed comp and voila! both the thumbdrives cld be read!! all the data tat appeared missing was back in where they were supposed to be. felt it was truly God's grace tat made this happen, i was really thankful for tat.

so i began to do up the content page again (since the work i did on teh other comp was lost) and started to print my report out. but probs kept occurring (like empty cashcard, wrong print jobs, etc), causing delays, however they were easily solved/taken care of. i made ALOT of trips to and from the printing machine, and wiped out my cashcard in less than an hour. i spent about $35, and got 1 colour copy and 2 b/w copies of my report, which had slightly over 70 pages each, and about 20 pages of rough paper (the result of wrong print jobs).

but by the time i was done, it was ald 6pm, my prof had gone home. cldnt submit it to the general office either, as it was closed. so can only submit it on monday, which means i have to specially come back juz to submit the report to my prof, cuz my lessons have ended. haiz. all the way to ntu juz to hand in something... if i had other things to do in the west it wldnt be tat bad actually.. but oh well i guess life's like tat.

yupz tats all for today.. had to endure a drippign nose teh whole time too. but at the same time i also experienced His providence, not juz in the thumbdrive fiasco but also in teh other less major probs tat i encountered today..for eg there was once i had a print job which cost $6.30, and the balance in my cash card read $6.40. it was jus nice loh. somehow, i juz kinda felt it was miraculous. =D

so yeah, tot i shld thank and praise Him for today before leaving school, and hence this entry. started writing 2 hours ago, but feel its worth it. thank You Father, for Your faithfulness and providence and companionship. i know i'll never starve with You around, and even tho i forget sometimes, You're still here looking out for me. Father i pray that You'll constantly remind me of Your love, may i fear and revere You, and worship You in the way tat is pleasing in Your eyes. thank You for always listening to my prayers, in teh name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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of late, i have been thinking about cutting my hair short. and changing my hairstyle in the process. tats cuz i cant stand my frizzy ends.. was hoping the short length will concentrate the nutrients tat is sent to my hair, and thus hope tat my hair will be smoother, with less kinks and frizzes. cuz tats wat happened to a fren of mine.. her hair had split ends and stuff.. but due to some reasons, she decided to cut it all off.. to a shoulder length. she stayed with this hairstyle for several months, refusing even to grow it out for dance. but when she did become too busy to go teh hairdresses, she discovered wat grew out was a head of hair tat is so soft.. so smooth.. so dreamlike. and i want tat kind of hair!!!! so ya. wanna cut it short.

but its a good hair day today, and suddenly i felt like letting my hair grow grow grow.. till my waist. imagine having smooth, straight hair tat reaches till the waist.. tat is so feminine!

hmmmm but tat is juz a passing tot. firstly cuz i think i'm too short for hair of such length and secondly, i muz admit i have more bad hair days than good ones, so i really need the haircut. heh. besides i dun really like to have too long a head of hair. cuz well it looks tooooooo tame. i htink im' tame enough, dun wanna appear to be more tame than i ald am. otherwise i'll be bullied by pp. haaa. seriously dunno why i suddenly for a moment wanted long long hair.

crazy me.

referring to laser beams, my m462 prof said today, "There will always divergence, it is just whether you can tolerate it."

and it struck me, how full of truth tat sentence was....

why am i doing this to myself...??

juz wanna drop a note of appreciation to all those who have egged me on to finish my fyp asap from time to time.. thanks guys, i will. =D

"The ancients used to convey "love" with a combination of three pictographs.

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