sometimes i feel like a flower.. trying hard to grow out of the soil to receive the sun.. but oftentimes trampled on.

seriously, its not a good feeling.

ok.. i'm contactable again liao.. thx to angelus and his fren. ya so now i'm using a trusty old N8310. smile. sighz now cannot take pics.. otherwise i'd have taken a pic of it.

yepz, of cuz thx to rainne also, for letting me use her phone for qte long on teh day tat i lost hte phone and accompanying me to make police report, and also ty for helping me to suspend the line.

so now i'm right back on track! yay. juz waiting to buy a new phone at some bargain price.. hehe. i'm actually thinking of buying the same model (ie SE k700i), but at a cheaper price, or buying its successor - the SE k750i... hehe.. but the SE k750i hasnt arrived in starhub shops yet, so its highly possible that even if i wait a few months more the price will still be qte steep.. hmmm well i hope it goes to below $300.

hmmm actually the reason y i din wanna use nokia was cuz i tot everyone's using it. but i realised that seems like everyone's using SE instead. heh. probably cuz of same (if not better) features at cheaper price compared to nokia ba. but its ok! i like SE more and more.. to the extent that i dun really care that its getting super common in sg.

oh ya and i lost everyone's contacts.. gonna go ard collecting again liao..



hmmm recently someone told me to take more salt. i mean usually pp are advised to refrain from too much salt intake right?? haha..
anw the reason y he advised me tat was cuz i keep getting toe cramps. he says minerals help to prevent cramps. dunno how true tat is but sounds interesting.. guess i'll try it out.. haha so now i got more excuse to gorge on fries!!!


oh i'll blog about tao soon..

i lost my phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i lost it on the bus.. put it on my lap to free up my hand so tat i cld adjust my skirt.. and apparently din realise it dropped when i alighted from teh bus.

and the STOOOPID thing is. i realised i lost it like 5 min after i alighted. i called sbs soon after. but they said all they cld do was to wait at the terminal and inform me if anyone reported a lost hp. i mean, i was sure the phone was still on the bus when i called sbs. if only they cld juz talk to the driver of tat bus there and then, i wldn't have lost it loh. but no........ they "didn't have walkie talkies".. so .. i cld only juz let my phone go juz like tat.........
sighz..........my new and beloved SE k700: mp3 player, radio and camera all in one.............. gone juz like tat.

its highly unlikely tat my phone will be returned.. cuz apparently rainne called me after i lost the hp and her phonecall got rejected.. and if that person meant to return my hp, he'd have picked up the call and told her tat my phone is lost right???

sighz if i ever pick up a lost hp, i'll definitely return it. cuz its really heartbreaking to lose one... sobz

i dunno whether i shld get back the same model.. cuz i shld think the retail price is much more htan wat i got it for (with 2 year plan with starhub).. ya.. tats one major reason why my heart is so pain now..............
boo hoo....

learnt a few lessons from htis:
1. never wear tat skirt again, so tat i wont have to adjust it and thus absentmindedly put my hp on my lap.
2. never travel on sbs buses again

haha ok i was juz joking. of cuz i'll wear tat skirt again (cuz my inventory of skirts isn't tat big, and i do like to wear things other than jeans) and of cuz i'll have to take sbs buses again.

anw ya so.. now i have to hunt for replacement phones.. any kind souls with extra phones to lend??

and in the meantime, i guess i wont be contactable.. can only contact me via email or msn.. sighz..

oh yesterday was april's fool. i used to dislike it, cuz i'd be nervous throughout the day, afraid that pp wld play some unwelcome jokes on me. (yeah i'm the meek kind.. dun play pranks on pp one. )i'd always imagine pp to pour flour or water on me, or use fake cockroaches to scare me. thank goodness they never materialised (and i hope they'll never!!). hmm come to think of it, i only remember 2 pranks played on me in my entire 22 years and 2 months+ of lifetime.. mebbe i only rem them and not the others cuz they were played on me by my crushes . but anw thank goodness htey were juz minor minor pranks. heh. but of cuz even if they were major ones i'd still have a crush on them la. haha. hmm but mebbe i'll be annoyed a lil bit.

yeah i din see the point of april's fool. i din see the fun.. but nowadays i start to learn to appreciate the lighter side of life, to be able to relax more and to enjoy more of the little little things in life.. i mean not to say tat i was really dead serious and boring last time, juz that nowadays i do more things juz for fun.. heh. and now i view april's fool as a legitimate day for pp to have a bit of fun (but not at the expense of pp's happiness la). heh.

oops actually wanted to blog about my trip to Tao's restaurant and a small cafe in orchard OG..hehe yeah here're another 2 eating places that im' enthu about. hmmm if pp din noe me they'd think im such a greedy pig, always eating here and there. but think i dun have much time liao.. so guess i'll blog about them in the next entry instead.

preparing to go out liao..

hmmmm actually qte some things have happened to me since the last entry.. but din really have time to blog. actually neither now too. but oh well hair is extremely wet plus im' waiting for someone to come online (no i dun have his telephone number.......) so juz blog loh.

actually i've got other things to do now la (hmm like look at some dance clips, visit frenster) juz tat sometimes my usually missing sense of responsibility decides to make an appearance. you ask "wat has having a sense of responsibility got to do with blogging???" well, thing is, i set up a blog, and (i suspect) this has attracted some readers out there who's not very interested in looking at the same entry everytime they visit this site.

anwz, i shall juz get to the primary purpose of this site ie to do updates on the life of yours truly. think i'll do it in reverse chronological order, its easier this way. heh.

firstly i'm feeling dizzy right now. most probably its not due to the tremors of an earthquake, but i ca'nt help but wonder if wat i'm experiencing is the 2nd round of tremors resulting from teh 8.6 earthquake off sumatra which occured yesterday night. hmmm think the more probable explanation of my dizzy spell is that I am suffering a post-trauma experience of wat happened last night. ie my flat swaying to and fro (i stay on 21st storey fyi). k la i wasnt really trauma-traumatised, but juz tat the feelings of unstable ground refuses to go away completely. oh manz i hope this stops soon.. its not really a nice feeling.. in fact it makes me scared. hmmm mebbe i WAS traumatised after all.. though subtly.

eh then wont i get an even worse post trauma experience when a more serious earthquake happens?? actually my sis and dad experienced earthquake tremors a few years ago too, and they said it was worse than the ones we experienced yesterday night. they said it was so bad that the water in the squatting toilet bowl splashed out.. goodness can't imagine.

ok teh next thing in reverse chronological order is actually something morbid.. i know of 2 deaths within 7 days. tats a really high occurence i think. first was my colleague..she passed away last tues, ie 22nd march. ok la not v close to her but she's juz sittign 2 cubicles away from me loh. i saw her everyday tat kinda thing. then the next day she's not around anymore. i mean, its not juz a long case of mc. its not even resignation. its disappearance from the lives of her family, her frens and all those who know her. and its the cutting short of her dreams, aspirations and hopes..a sudden one at that. oh i havent told you wat happened right. she's actually teh gal who got killed in teh motor accident 2 mths before her scheduled marriage on 17th may..and whose fiance married her posthumously.. her story got published in monday's The Newpaper and on the 2nd page of the Home edition of ST last sat or thurs i forgot.
and the 2nd death is taht of teh grandma of one of my christian brothers, she passed away on 27th mar. she's actually been suffering for qte long, think seh'got diagnosed with cancer like 2 years ago.. but as her grandson said, her will power is really strong.. cuz seems like she waited till all her grand children (except the grandson that i know) got married before she died. and she waited for like 2 years loh. i think in a way its a relief for her, from her suffering..

ya.. i realise i have been taking life for granted..i naturally set plans for myself, and i almost never htink that i'll die before i get to them. but of cuz, i know that God has His plans.. and we can never be sure of what He plans to happen tomorrow.. who knows, tomorrow i may juz return to Him. i mean of cuz i'm still scared when i htink about this possibility. cuz im' still not ready to let go of my life, of wat cld have possibly been. and of cuz i'll miss my loved ones, and i'm sure vice versa..but well i trust God's ways are higher than those of men (and women. )..

ya.. so now i treasure my life, and my loved ones more.. along with it im' so much more grateful to Him..for giving us so much time before the day of judgement. for someone once said "His grace to us is time". which is true i htink. of cuz His grace includes salvation for us too la.

but actually its really hard not to take life for granted. cuz well being able to breathe, being able to know, and to react to wat's happening around us is such a given in our lives.. isnt it?? ya.. its an effort, but its to be made, to always be appreciative of the grace He's given us, and to make good use of the time that we're given to do what we should. amen.

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erm actually i wrote the above post a few days before.. i din have the time to finish the post so i saved it as a draft. but now i forgot wat i wanted to blog.. heeehh..

anwz as some of you noe, i went back school to see the doc on thurs. i suspected i was bout to fall sick and i was hoping he cld give me some preventive medicine. well he did confirm that i was about to get viral infection, and he did give me lots of medicine (which cost me $13, which is alot if you're trying hard to save money. now i know why some pp dun really like to visit the doc. haha). but later on my fren who's studying for her honours in pharmaceutical degree told me that viral infections cannot be prevented or cured, the medicines i got from him was juz to relieve the symptoms. and so now i'm juz waiting for the viral infection to manifest itself..haiz. he also assured me that others have been experiencing the dizzy spells even after the quake too. ok so now i know i wasnt making htings up, and i'm not tat abnormal after all. heh.

hmmm msn is having qte alot of probs lately. twice, while having conversations w my frens, they'd juz appear to go offline and sign in again, and go offlien and sign in again, and this'd happen like every one minute. and strangely, its not the usual case of being d/ced on and off. cuz this time while they were offlien, they din realise it , and cld still send msgs to me. but i cldn't send to them. and apparently their (at least, his) friends experience this prob w them too.. hmm.

oh no.. wat happened to my pirouettes???!! gasp i hope the link comes back soon.. altho ok admittedly it hasnt been of much use lately. heh.

anw i found this in cold storage on sunday:



those who frequent sakae sushi might recognise this.. its the mochi icecream which sakae charges $1.90 for 2 (the quantity shown beside the box) when cold storage charges $5+ for a box of 15????? which makes it $0.30 for 1?? I think i'm never gonna eat mochi icecream at sakae again.....its not worth it..

and speaking of sakae sushi actually went to the bugis branch the day before. and yes i ordered the mochi icecream. bleah.

here are the pics:

mini mango something


nice shape huh.. i mean teh formation as well as the individual pcs. after all, you hardly get sushi in teh shape of teardrops..

intercom


they actually have this intercom for ordering stuff.. but felt qte weird speaking to the black box tho. cuz well i dun live in a condo. as yet. hehehe.
qte interesting but the branch in funan is more high tech.. you order through flat panel monitor complete with a scroll mouse. but then funan is the IT mall.. so mebbe that's why its keepign with the theme of teh commercial bldg. heh.

k really slpy.. shall go zzzzz now.

and i notice that if i use photobucket to blog, the paragraphing out comes out a tad too weird for my liking. hmmmmm

yesh so here i am back again to reblog tat missing entry..





well here are those pics i took over the past few weeks and their accompanying stories..


i

had juz bought my new bag and was qte excited about it.. took this pic

and qte liked it cuz of the contrast and vibrancy of colours..




wore

this shoe while buying the bag tat day and was qte paiseh.. was really

afraid the salesgal wld see the defect in my shoe and look down on

me..like htink im' v han2 suan1 heh. can you spot the defect? think i

gotta throw it away soon.. but dun really bear too cuz i liked it qte

alot. i realised its a love it or hate it object cuz i've received

comments abuot it from both ends. but well i love it. so there.






this pic is of the koi in my company's pond. i like the way in which

the fishes seem to follow the ripples but yet break out of it

eventually.. its visually apealing to me..








yesh and these 2 were taken after my nail broke on teh fourth finger..

teh pic below is the nail. was qte shocking cuz actually i was juz

washing my hair when i felt sthg hard amongst my strands of hair.

initially tot it was some beetle and was kinda freaked out. when i took

it out of my hair and took a closer look at wat it was, i was still

freaked out, but in another way.. cuz i realised it was my nail tat i

was holding in my hands. i mean the shocking thing was tat it juz

broke.. w/out any warning or watever. i din even feel the pain when it

broke.




and

htis is the pic i was referrign to in my prev prev entry.. about my

win. taken w my fav softie to show i really had possession of the

trophy =P cute softie.. ooooh..




this

was taken while i was hurrying to catch a show. not too blur right? was

really impressed w my camera phone. oh and like the colours too.. do

you all recognise the place?? hehe.. clue: hmv






hehe there're 25 strands of hair in this pic.. and i dropped them

within a 3 hour period. i think im' balding!!! *sobz* but ok la the

rate of hair droppign was probably accelerated by my more frequent

combing of hair tat day..





yepz tat's wat i wrote the otehr day.. roughly la huh. anw i juz watched hitch, its good! slhd go watch it if you havent.





yepz ok i hope this works today.. gotta slp soon even tho my hair's not dry yet cuz its 1am ald!!!





nitez.....hehe but i htink i'll juz watch the grade C and grade A

(grade A is the highest std while grade E is the lowest) cha cha videos

a while more.. a fren took them on teh day of the competition and sent

it to me. =D

i'm getting to be really irritated w my blog.

i jzu typed another fairly long entry which got erased again. its not tat i pressed teh wrong button (liek last time), juz tat it seemed like my blogging session expired and thus i cldnt post the data. arrrrgh

qte late mebbe i'll retype my entry anoter day.

really irritating.

hmmm realised tat i'm not spared.. errors occured for my photobucket acct too..i hope they'll get out of the beta phase early..

hmm i guess i can sthg to rectify the previous 2 posts but now is really late ald.. 325am..havent slpt so late in a long time.. heh. think i'll do it some other day..

nitez pp!

 

and these were taken to show off my phone's features..





this pic below was taken w/out any effects..







and this pic below was taken wth teh "negative effect".. looks interesting eh?? hehe..









hehe my phone has other effects too.. juz tat i din take pictures w

other effects cuz i din want to take up too much space unnec.. one bad

thing abuot my phone is tat the memory of 41mb is built in.. meaning

tat you cant expand it. 41 mb may be qte a lot compared to otehr

phones, but it can  only store about 7 mp3.. (after taking away

5mb for the phone's internal memory)





but oh well im contented.


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yes im' still on the topic of my win.. haha.. dunno y i'm still so

happy becuz of it.. <img src=

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yeah i also finally got my infrared devide.. tats y i can now post

pictures on my blog liao!!!





and thx to the new goodie tat photobucket offers, i can now easily post

blogs with pictures.. hmm but it seems like there's been qte a few

errors so far.. i  hope this post will be ok..





so yeah actually for the past few weeks i have taken qte a few pictures

tat i wanna blog about.. so i'm finally able to write these blogs

liao!!! hahaaha....





hehe shall start on my trophy:









and the following pic's taken w my favourite stuffed toy.. hehe cute right!!


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