continuing on the prev post, i actually made a bet with zy tat he'll get attached sooner than me... hehe.. i wonder if i'll eventually get a levi's voucher from him.. =p

anw went to a fren's 21st bday party yest.. it was qte normal.. a chalet.. and ok la not TAT many pple as some bday chalets i noe.. bout 50plus pple? wasnt really tat close to her actually..but i went juz to accompany my fren.. and besides, most of her clique in our class are studying overseas now.. and i guess we are her 2nd closest group of pple in the class..so.. juz go and cheer support her loh..

anw speaking of bday parties.. qte paiseh ah.. din organise any on my birthday.. abit regret actually.. but there were alot of reasons y i din hold la..lazy to type out now.. heh. but still was really happy on tat day la.. its the little little things tat frens do to make me feel special.. like ordering a surprise bday cake for me, complimenting me, and treating me to meals at my fav eateries.. =D yepz.. thx alot dears! @}-',--

heh.. dunno if i'm suffering from pms or wat.. nowadays any little thing will get me feeling pissed/upset/affected. heh. sianz. hope i get over it soonz.

so late ald htink i better koon.. got lessons tmr. plus my pa wants to play internet chess.. sighz him ah.. play play play, spend so much time on the comp then nev do useful stuff when he's not working.. i mean for me at least some of the time i'm on the comp im' doing work lohz. hmm but well i shldnt grumble.. shld be more filial also.. heh. =p

recently a few pple asked me whether i have a bf.. and they act all surprised when i say no. i mean, wat's wrong w me having no bf?? pple dun want me wat can i do right.. heh

anw y muz have bf?? i cant enjoy singlehood mehz. i mean true its nice to have someone to care for and be cared.. but on the other hand i'm really glad to be free of bgr worries actually.. heez. plus i get to have fun! hehe.. and i dun think i shld get a bf juz for teh sake of getting one right.. if tats the case.. i think the point is.. ermm...lost..

anw after those few incidences of pple integorrating me for details of my personal life i have discovered y i'm still single after so long. its cuz the myth is not such a myth after all.. tat all good guys are attached.. either tat or they're not interested in me =(

ah well. who cares. i'm enjoying singlehood~ =p

there's no need for comparison.. you're different doenst mean you're not as good...

click on "cute games"! i love orisinal's newest addition (ferry halim puts the newest games in the top left hand corner)! called starry night, its a cross between "pocketful of stars" and "fishball", 2 of my favs =D
my cousin recommends "these little pigs" to anyone who adores pigs and enjoys the instrumental pc "Canon in D". juz click on the icon with a pig =)

hehe been playing orisinal games since the vacations after 'A's.. had a parttime job as an admin asst in a law firm, and there was once we were sick of all the typing. my fellow temp recommended this to us, so we started playing. feel the site is qte good as all the games are cute and easy..and you wont get sick of visiting the site as there are new games every now and then. the games are brainless, music is soothing and graphics are cute. its perfect for times when you wanna take a break from your work. *hows my sales pitch?? hehehe oh well but i suck at sales so.. heh*

btw, think "orisinal" actually means "original". as in the author was being creative by typing the word such tat it looks as if the tail of the "g" was kept above the bottom edge of the other letters.. hmm kinda hard to say.. if you see the "s" as a mini "g" you'll understand.. heh
oh well but mebbe i'm juz seeing too much stuff into small things.. =p

now in cits lab listening to my current fav song.. its a simple song, but i like it cuz you can feel the gal's deep love for the guy.. think its sooooo romantic... hehe.. heeheez. no special story here.. but this is wat i want next time.. to have someone whom i can love so deeply.... *dreamy look* =p yepz yepz go listen.. nice nice

past few days have been lousy for me.. realised i was in a rut.. studies lagging.. dance lousy.. and i have 0 personal discipline!!!! watever that i can be late for, i'll b late.. lectures, tutorial class, assignments, tests.. you name it, i'll b late for it =( its so bad that i realised i havent been attendign lectures for the past 2 weeks.... and only been attending half of the tuts.. yest was the worst... i even missed econs tut, which i've been attending regularly so far.. (and so suay yesterday she began this system of calling everyone on the attendance sheet to answer qns)

really felt qte lousy about myself.. actually i always feel lousy bout myself.. its either i'm really lousy or i juz have an inferior complex or i look at things too narrowly =(

sigh ok so the truth is out. i'm not such a wonderful gal after all..haha.

sighz i hate midterm.. always such a bz and stressful period...

oh wait i hate exam time too.. haha

i sprained my foot.. not ankle.. foot. was juz walking walking.. then suddenly there was slight pain.. which grew to big pain later in the day.. been 1 week liaoz. think its cuz of the shoes i was wearing.. cuz it doesn't hav any support at the back so i had to grip the shoes with my toes most of the time...its the pair of white with crossed straps at the front.. which has received qte a lot of compliments =p.. gals, moral of the story: its bad to let vanity get teh better of you.. heh..(but i din say dun... cuz i noe this kind of things cant b helped =p)
hmm but fortunately i still can dance. infact when i dance its not painful at all.. only when i walk.. hehe.. its cuz i only feel the pain when my toes are bent up.. and when i dance i do the opp by pting my toes ma (ok at least i attempt to.. heh)..

recently had dinner with a fren.. whom i havent been speaking to for qte some time.. i wonder if its true tat most things, once lost can never be recovered?

anw ya the gal in some certain paper is me.. juz in case you're wondering.. *so paiseh* hehe.. =p

hmm there have been qte a slew of christian movies recently (ok only 2 tat i heard of).. possibly due to the nearing of easter and good friday..
one is directed by mel gibson, called the passion of teh christ, which shows the last 24 (or 12, i forgot) hours before he was crucified, and another is simply titled the gospel of john, which is well, teh gospel of john.. haha.. no additions from other books, no omission of complex details..dun think they're one and teh same altho both claim to be str from the bible.

here are the links:

gospel of john

and

passion of the christ

think i shld go off to clear more of my deadlines liao.. till the next instalment~

hmmz.. havent solved teh backgrd music prob yet.. anyone has any idea how i can upload my music to this page?? i tried setting up a webspace in geocities but either its cuz i havent read the instructions or it juz doesn't work..

anw if you all have noticed, there's this link to my fav music on teh bottom of the right hand side bar.. a pity its only available to ntu students, and even then you all have to do one extra step of typing in your studentlink username and password.. (rem to type "student" as the domain..if there's no field for domain, put "student\" before your username) hehe...... paiseh ah.. i'm trying to improve the situation ald..

anw the reason y i havent been bloggin for the past few days was cuz i was really bz........ really really bz......i mean, 3 deadlines in 2 days?? and not w/out probs cropping up here and there somemore

having been absent for a few days naturally i'd have a lot of htings to write.. but as my work is still not cleared =( i'd feel guilty for spending too much time on this...so hehe..

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. "

music of the moment ~ 'Pachebel: Canon in D'

too busy in the past one day to blog.. too tired now to write much..

some probs with the background music.. trying to solve it..

ok lemme be honest.. i touched the comp!!!

cldnt help it.. i tot of this fabulous idea of how to put my music onto this blog... instead of sticking with the one originally in the template.. cld'nt wait to try it out la.. hehe..

anw i have done the changes but seems like blogger is kinda slow to update the changes again.. nvm hope tat by tmr it will work..

i'm in teh lib gotta rush cuz its closing soon..

anw again, i'm NOT gonna touch the comp tonight.. i muz cont to do this for 14 days.. cuz my fren told me once tat to form a habit, juz do it 14 times.. consecutively.. yeah No Venturing Near trhe Comp again... No Blogging.. No Doing Online Work.. No Chattnig.. heheh.. and I Mus Slp At 1am Tonight. Mus Prepare Go Slp at 12am..

anw.. feelign trapped in a state of unproductivenes.. so many things waiting fr me to do.. but dunno y i juz feel.. like i'm not moving.. no progress... no inclination for progress...

lib closing so writign incoherently.. forgive my lack of logic/watever

feel free to comment! =D

hmm was in the lab juz now.. then something happened to make me kinda upset. was somethign minor actually... but it caused me to think bout frenships in the university.. how fleeting and sometimes, unreal it can be..really disappointing.. i mean i knew it long ago.. but it was only juz now that i really felt affected by it.. even now.. i still feel a bit giddy from it.. hmm.. frenship.. its such a delicate thing..mebbe i shld learn to lower my expectations???

anw you all shld have noticed by now, the words are bigger.. this is in response to someone's comment that the site is not userfrenly. hehe.. well zh, izzit better now? but will do more to improve, dun worry =)

hmm one thing bout this.. i can't put smileys eh.. so do forgive my lack of smiling vocab here.. =p

anw to cont yest's blog, i was true to my word, din go online yest! =D *someone pls congrat me. heh*
but hmm i still slept at 2am tho.. i was still worried bout work and decided to do abit of it before slping..(a pity its not sch work tho. heh) guess if i really want to stop slping late i shld juz let go of any worries and hit the sack at the end of teh day??

oh guess wat.. rem i said i emailed enetation bout this prob?? actually they did reply..but i din see teh mail cuz it was teh last entry at the last page of my inbox (i archive mails..and they amount to 4 pages..i only saw it cuz i decided out of teh blue to clear my inbox lohz).. and y??? cuz the the person who sent it din change his date settings in his email acc.. so in teh mail he sent, teh date was recorded to be 27th sept 2002... =="............. but anw the mail wasn't of much use except tat the "comments" has been changed to "pirouettes", which i saw long ago, other tahn tat, the person also din noe how to solve the main prob ie comments cant b posted.. again, ==".. ok but to give him due credit he did suggest to change the template as he noticed tat the comments worked fine with teh default one.. so i'll juz experiment w that ba..

i'm in the nbs free access lab right now.. wonder y they call it free access when access is restricted to only nbs students.. and ya haha i logged in using rainne's acc.. =p

i still have so many things to do but i'm here bloggin away.. big waste of time i feel.. but then..
1. getting scared of maths notes (no wonder, we're always scared of alien stuff)
2. din wanna study econs (since there's no urgency)
3. cldnt study anythign else cuz only brought maths and econs
4. too weak (from hunger) to type request for grants out
5. too weak also to think of how solve the comments problem

anw i'm not gonna blog tonight. No. definitely not. i'm not even gonna touch the comp tonight. cuz by the time i get back from dance pract it shld b 12 plus.. and if i wanna stop this habit of slping late tats wat i shld do. No Touching of Comp. and No Venturing Near the Computer. yeah tats it. but well........ tats if i manage to keep my hands off the comp la..

can't think of anythign else now besides the sourish feeling in my stomach and general weakness.. realised when i'm having flu, i get hungry easier, faster.. and i havent eaten since 11am.. when i had porridge..

think i shld stop wasting time and go back to staring at some alien paper. mebbe i'll discover tat not there are some not-so-alien parts.......

oh there's been one qn which has been bothering me for the past 2 days. too hungry to htink how to phrase it here...... mebbe i'll post it some other time when i'm less hungry. oh but not tonight......... no way.......*i hope*

ooooooooohhh feeling drowsy........

which is a good sign cuz it means tat i'm one step nearer to my goal. ie sleeping early.. hehe.. yeah i managed to start preparing to slp at 1230am yest.. even though in the end still din manage to really slp early (slept at ard 2 in the end, dunno wat i was doing from 1230 to 2 tho), was qte encouraged..

eh feeling really qte woozy now so forgive my lack of logic or watever.. realised i cld'nt think when i was attempting to do some dsa admin stuff jus now

anw juz to fill in the blanks, yest was sunday... nothing much happened except tat i went cell.. ok i cna juz hear luffter ald.. i dun mean tat me gg cell was hmm out of the ordinary, but rather, tat i learnt sthg from cell..

well basically it was th same old prob but juz tat in the this sunday's cell i learnt the consequences if my prob wasn't cured.. ie i'd become a false christian.. who are consumed by their own desires.. and do not seek God..

ok to all brothers and sisters in christ out there pls dun condemn me yet.. *james 4:11-12*.. i defend myself: i still do seek God.. juz tat not all the time.. and tat for 99% of the things i do, i do it not cuz of Jesus or God.. but for myself......arrgh.. terrible. *bleah*

and i dun wanna b false christian!!! so.. all i can do is juz to pray tat eventually i'll live the right way..so.. ahem. pls help ya?? hehehehe..

hmm i'm getting more and more awake.. which is bad.. wanna slp early leh..

ok now to today.. was qte good.. felt cheerful today.. also dunno y.. heh.. only thing was tat during the only lec which i attended (it was m285, skipped the earlier 2 lecs =p), i din noe wat was happening like 70% of the time.. i mean i really tried to listen.. but.. i'm sure all ntu pple out there can empathise with having a foreign lecturer.. nus pple too i'd think. yeah.. shan't say more.. can infer wat im' driving at, i'm sure.. heh..

ya for the rest of hte day it was qte good.. hehe got 13/15 for my econs quiz! well ok i noe tat isn't so great esp when you consider tat others did ard the same or even better..and tat hte quiz only consisted of 15 mcq qns.. but my econs have always sucked.. so its qte an encouragement for me ald k.. heh..

plus had dinner w my cousin today.. enjoyed the time w her.. din really chat bout deep stuff.. well.. its enough =)

hmm and walking back from hall 14 to hall 11 with her, memories came back to me........ memories of me gg back to hall 11 with rainne and zy after a night of studying......and another memory of us 2 with ty...... can juz smell hall 14's tv room.. where we studied the whole night.. can juz hear the fan whirring above my head.. some stuff... words juz can't describe fully.. but i guess you sorta get the idea...

memories are for us to keep.. and treasure.. cuz somethings.. once changed.. can't b restored.....

a lot of htings have changed....... things tat make me sad..and yearn for the past.. but.. wat can i do, but to embrace them?

sigh..........

*ay, a bit poetic hor =p*

shucks im' really getting awake now. think i better go liao.. before its too late! ya... no use thinking bout stuff liaoz.. heh.. i shld grinz and face all the new and wondrous stuff tats coming my way *watever they may b, heh*

=D

hmm enetation STILL hasnt replied my mail...........