hmmz ok realised i made a spelling mistake in the prev blog.. its "summarise", not "summerise".. hahaha.. i guess its got to do with my icecream trip to cafe cartel yesterday...

hehe cuz there was a "summerise" on the menu.. then i guess teh word sorta got stuck in my head.. haha. n i keep mixing it up with "sunset boulevard". which is my fav icecream flavour in cafe cartel, and possibly in all the icecream shops i've been to.. hmmz yeah a close fight with "nuts about you" in haagan dazs....

yepz yepz "sunset boulevard", my fav icecream, consists of vanilla icecream with kiwi and mandarin orange.. ( i'm a vanilla and fruits person! =D ) so yeah i guess all you chocolate pple wont like this..

and cafe cartel is my fav cafe! decent ambience, great food! havent tried all.. but most of the food and drinks have been delicious! recommendations are of cuz "sunset" for icecream (hmm cant do any recommendations for the choc based icecreams cuz i havent tried any), "blush" for drinks (there're other great thirst-quenching concoctions but i forgot the names), garlic bread for snacks, "in the field" for pasta (cream) and generally all their pan-fried linguine are nice.. for their main courses, i prefer teh ocean variety.....

heez actually i'm sure all of you wont b able to remember all the above recommendations.. so next time you wanna go cafe cartel juz jio me along then i can help you choose..commission v cheap, juz the meal will do.....=P

anw, really glad i came out yest night.. enjoyed the icecream and the quietness.. =)

hmm was listening to some songs a few days back.. brought back alot of memories.. really nice songs btw.. wanted to share some of them but seems like i can only share songs tat are wma... cuz only wma songs can "invoke" the IE windows meda player on your comps. ah well.

WAH i have been away for soooooooooooo long.......... heh hope its still not deserted yet... =p

hmmz i guess reason y i've not been blogging.. is cuz i was kinda depressed.. so kinda lost interest in everything.. including blogging........

dunno y i was depressed too.. i guess its the addition of all the disappointments in my life........disappointed in myself mostly....for those who have been following my blog closely (at least before i started the season of blogging-drought) you'd have suspected it i guess..
and the fact that i was disappointed in myself din really help much.. its like eventually i came to this state where i was sad cuz i was sad... you noe like "sighz, my life is in such a sad state"..its like, i pity myself for having such a sad life.. so.. in a way.. the sadness perpetuates...heh......*hmmz i hope wat i juz typed is understandable*

anw thx for your consolations k...shows tat at least i still have frens who care..... sobz~ *touched, tats y the sob*
@}-',--

anw actually qte alot of interesting things have happened in the past one week.. if not for my depression i guess i'd have qte alot of things to write.

wanted to juz summerise the stuff but think i dun even have time to do tat..

think i muz go home do assigment liao.. which is due 2 days later and which was supposed to be done in the course of 12 weeks.. hahahaa....... =p for those of you in the know, its the m285 assig..

yepz.. dunno when i'll blog again.. hope it will b soon. heh...

erm btw, regarding the "my fav music" link, or any link here tat leads you to the signing into ntu gemsweb, do not be surprised if you get an invalid page on first try. you muz refresh the page.. ya realised i forgot to say.. heh oh well i hope all of you have figured tho.. =p

anw rainne has juz described her workload for these 2 weeks. which is like. really ridiculous. meant for the superhumanbeing. heh. poor gal ah her.. anw shall keep stock here also: next week - 1 assignment (which i havent start and which is supposed to be done in 10 weeks) 1 presentation (which we havent even chosen the topic for). next next week: 1 test. heeeeeeez sounds really relaxing compared to rainne's lehz. i shld feel ashamed of myself.. heh. dunno where my time has gone to also.. yeah but then altho relaxing you'll see me die a slow and terrible death from 22nd April to 7th May.. 7 papers to go k.. *dying*

sighz i still have quiz first thing in teh morn tmr.. and i havent been gg for tat tuts and lec AT ALL!!! dun even have complete set of notes =p but then its my 2nd quiz for this subj ald.... and te first quiz.. think if lucky still can pass.. i hope it will b so for the one tmr too =p

hey pple! orisinal has another new game! go take a look... haaa..

hmm i noticed that there seems to be some prob with the counting of teh pirouettes by enetation.. either tat or someone did a pirouette but it wasn't reflected.. anw juz to make sure, when you all do pirouettes, pls rem to type your nick in the identification field..otherwise the pirouettes window will blank out.. a tip: when it does hang, juz press alt key and the left arrow at teh same time. this is teh shortcut for the "back" button. so conversely the shortcut for the "forward" button is alt+right arrow lohz. heh.

sighz the channel u wkend primetime show "love is beautiful" (more commonly known as wu2 tou2 dong1 gong1) has ended... altho it was really kinda cheesy, not to mention that there were alot of loopholes and parts which were unaccounted for in the script, overall it was really qte engaging.. feel like slapping the evil chuchu everytime she does sthg evil.. (which is actually most of the time) heh..

continuing on the prev post, i actually made a bet with zy tat he'll get attached sooner than me... hehe.. i wonder if i'll eventually get a levi's voucher from him.. =p

anw went to a fren's 21st bday party yest.. it was qte normal.. a chalet.. and ok la not TAT many pple as some bday chalets i noe.. bout 50plus pple? wasnt really tat close to her actually..but i went juz to accompany my fren.. and besides, most of her clique in our class are studying overseas now.. and i guess we are her 2nd closest group of pple in the class..so.. juz go and cheer support her loh..

anw speaking of bday parties.. qte paiseh ah.. din organise any on my birthday.. abit regret actually.. but there were alot of reasons y i din hold la..lazy to type out now.. heh. but still was really happy on tat day la.. its the little little things tat frens do to make me feel special.. like ordering a surprise bday cake for me, complimenting me, and treating me to meals at my fav eateries.. =D yepz.. thx alot dears! @}-',--

heh.. dunno if i'm suffering from pms or wat.. nowadays any little thing will get me feeling pissed/upset/affected. heh. sianz. hope i get over it soonz.

so late ald htink i better koon.. got lessons tmr. plus my pa wants to play internet chess.. sighz him ah.. play play play, spend so much time on the comp then nev do useful stuff when he's not working.. i mean for me at least some of the time i'm on the comp im' doing work lohz. hmm but well i shldnt grumble.. shld be more filial also.. heh. =p

recently a few pple asked me whether i have a bf.. and they act all surprised when i say no. i mean, wat's wrong w me having no bf?? pple dun want me wat can i do right.. heh

anw y muz have bf?? i cant enjoy singlehood mehz. i mean true its nice to have someone to care for and be cared.. but on the other hand i'm really glad to be free of bgr worries actually.. heez. plus i get to have fun! hehe.. and i dun think i shld get a bf juz for teh sake of getting one right.. if tats the case.. i think the point is.. ermm...lost..

anw after those few incidences of pple integorrating me for details of my personal life i have discovered y i'm still single after so long. its cuz the myth is not such a myth after all.. tat all good guys are attached.. either tat or they're not interested in me =(

ah well. who cares. i'm enjoying singlehood~ =p

there's no need for comparison.. you're different doenst mean you're not as good...

click on "cute games"! i love orisinal's newest addition (ferry halim puts the newest games in the top left hand corner)! called starry night, its a cross between "pocketful of stars" and "fishball", 2 of my favs =D
my cousin recommends "these little pigs" to anyone who adores pigs and enjoys the instrumental pc "Canon in D". juz click on the icon with a pig =)

hehe been playing orisinal games since the vacations after 'A's.. had a parttime job as an admin asst in a law firm, and there was once we were sick of all the typing. my fellow temp recommended this to us, so we started playing. feel the site is qte good as all the games are cute and easy..and you wont get sick of visiting the site as there are new games every now and then. the games are brainless, music is soothing and graphics are cute. its perfect for times when you wanna take a break from your work. *hows my sales pitch?? hehehe oh well but i suck at sales so.. heh*

btw, think "orisinal" actually means "original". as in the author was being creative by typing the word such tat it looks as if the tail of the "g" was kept above the bottom edge of the other letters.. hmm kinda hard to say.. if you see the "s" as a mini "g" you'll understand.. heh
oh well but mebbe i'm juz seeing too much stuff into small things.. =p

now in cits lab listening to my current fav song.. its a simple song, but i like it cuz you can feel the gal's deep love for the guy.. think its sooooo romantic... hehe.. heeheez. no special story here.. but this is wat i want next time.. to have someone whom i can love so deeply.... *dreamy look* =p yepz yepz go listen.. nice nice

past few days have been lousy for me.. realised i was in a rut.. studies lagging.. dance lousy.. and i have 0 personal discipline!!!! watever that i can be late for, i'll b late.. lectures, tutorial class, assignments, tests.. you name it, i'll b late for it =( its so bad that i realised i havent been attendign lectures for the past 2 weeks.... and only been attending half of the tuts.. yest was the worst... i even missed econs tut, which i've been attending regularly so far.. (and so suay yesterday she began this system of calling everyone on the attendance sheet to answer qns)

really felt qte lousy about myself.. actually i always feel lousy bout myself.. its either i'm really lousy or i juz have an inferior complex or i look at things too narrowly =(

sigh ok so the truth is out. i'm not such a wonderful gal after all..haha.

sighz i hate midterm.. always such a bz and stressful period...

oh wait i hate exam time too.. haha

i sprained my foot.. not ankle.. foot. was juz walking walking.. then suddenly there was slight pain.. which grew to big pain later in the day.. been 1 week liaoz. think its cuz of the shoes i was wearing.. cuz it doesn't hav any support at the back so i had to grip the shoes with my toes most of the time...its the pair of white with crossed straps at the front.. which has received qte a lot of compliments =p.. gals, moral of the story: its bad to let vanity get teh better of you.. heh..(but i din say dun... cuz i noe this kind of things cant b helped =p)
hmm but fortunately i still can dance. infact when i dance its not painful at all.. only when i walk.. hehe.. its cuz i only feel the pain when my toes are bent up.. and when i dance i do the opp by pting my toes ma (ok at least i attempt to.. heh)..

recently had dinner with a fren.. whom i havent been speaking to for qte some time.. i wonder if its true tat most things, once lost can never be recovered?

anw ya the gal in some certain paper is me.. juz in case you're wondering.. *so paiseh* hehe.. =p

hmm there have been qte a slew of christian movies recently (ok only 2 tat i heard of).. possibly due to the nearing of easter and good friday..
one is directed by mel gibson, called the passion of teh christ, which shows the last 24 (or 12, i forgot) hours before he was crucified, and another is simply titled the gospel of john, which is well, teh gospel of john.. haha.. no additions from other books, no omission of complex details..dun think they're one and teh same altho both claim to be str from the bible.

here are the links:

gospel of john

and

passion of the christ

think i shld go off to clear more of my deadlines liao.. till the next instalment~

hmmz.. havent solved teh backgrd music prob yet.. anyone has any idea how i can upload my music to this page?? i tried setting up a webspace in geocities but either its cuz i havent read the instructions or it juz doesn't work..

anw if you all have noticed, there's this link to my fav music on teh bottom of the right hand side bar.. a pity its only available to ntu students, and even then you all have to do one extra step of typing in your studentlink username and password.. (rem to type "student" as the domain..if there's no field for domain, put "student\" before your username) hehe...... paiseh ah.. i'm trying to improve the situation ald..

anw the reason y i havent been bloggin for the past few days was cuz i was really bz........ really really bz......i mean, 3 deadlines in 2 days?? and not w/out probs cropping up here and there somemore

having been absent for a few days naturally i'd have a lot of htings to write.. but as my work is still not cleared =( i'd feel guilty for spending too much time on this...so hehe..

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things. "

music of the moment ~ 'Pachebel: Canon in D'

too busy in the past one day to blog.. too tired now to write much..

some probs with the background music.. trying to solve it..

ok lemme be honest.. i touched the comp!!!

cldnt help it.. i tot of this fabulous idea of how to put my music onto this blog... instead of sticking with the one originally in the template.. cld'nt wait to try it out la.. hehe..

anw i have done the changes but seems like blogger is kinda slow to update the changes again.. nvm hope tat by tmr it will work..

i'm in teh lib gotta rush cuz its closing soon..

anw again, i'm NOT gonna touch the comp tonight.. i muz cont to do this for 14 days.. cuz my fren told me once tat to form a habit, juz do it 14 times.. consecutively.. yeah No Venturing Near trhe Comp again... No Blogging.. No Doing Online Work.. No Chattnig.. heheh.. and I Mus Slp At 1am Tonight. Mus Prepare Go Slp at 12am..

anw.. feelign trapped in a state of unproductivenes.. so many things waiting fr me to do.. but dunno y i juz feel.. like i'm not moving.. no progress... no inclination for progress...

lib closing so writign incoherently.. forgive my lack of logic/watever

feel free to comment! =D

hmm was in the lab juz now.. then something happened to make me kinda upset. was somethign minor actually... but it caused me to think bout frenships in the university.. how fleeting and sometimes, unreal it can be..really disappointing.. i mean i knew it long ago.. but it was only juz now that i really felt affected by it.. even now.. i still feel a bit giddy from it.. hmm.. frenship.. its such a delicate thing..mebbe i shld learn to lower my expectations???

anw you all shld have noticed by now, the words are bigger.. this is in response to someone's comment that the site is not userfrenly. hehe.. well zh, izzit better now? but will do more to improve, dun worry =)

hmm one thing bout this.. i can't put smileys eh.. so do forgive my lack of smiling vocab here.. =p

anw to cont yest's blog, i was true to my word, din go online yest! =D *someone pls congrat me. heh*
but hmm i still slept at 2am tho.. i was still worried bout work and decided to do abit of it before slping..(a pity its not sch work tho. heh) guess if i really want to stop slping late i shld juz let go of any worries and hit the sack at the end of teh day??

oh guess wat.. rem i said i emailed enetation bout this prob?? actually they did reply..but i din see teh mail cuz it was teh last entry at the last page of my inbox (i archive mails..and they amount to 4 pages..i only saw it cuz i decided out of teh blue to clear my inbox lohz).. and y??? cuz the the person who sent it din change his date settings in his email acc.. so in teh mail he sent, teh date was recorded to be 27th sept 2002... =="............. but anw the mail wasn't of much use except tat the "comments" has been changed to "pirouettes", which i saw long ago, other tahn tat, the person also din noe how to solve the main prob ie comments cant b posted.. again, ==".. ok but to give him due credit he did suggest to change the template as he noticed tat the comments worked fine with teh default one.. so i'll juz experiment w that ba..

i'm in the nbs free access lab right now.. wonder y they call it free access when access is restricted to only nbs students.. and ya haha i logged in using rainne's acc.. =p

i still have so many things to do but i'm here bloggin away.. big waste of time i feel.. but then..
1. getting scared of maths notes (no wonder, we're always scared of alien stuff)
2. din wanna study econs (since there's no urgency)
3. cldnt study anythign else cuz only brought maths and econs
4. too weak (from hunger) to type request for grants out
5. too weak also to think of how solve the comments problem

anw i'm not gonna blog tonight. No. definitely not. i'm not even gonna touch the comp tonight. cuz by the time i get back from dance pract it shld b 12 plus.. and if i wanna stop this habit of slping late tats wat i shld do. No Touching of Comp. and No Venturing Near the Computer. yeah tats it. but well........ tats if i manage to keep my hands off the comp la..

can't think of anythign else now besides the sourish feeling in my stomach and general weakness.. realised when i'm having flu, i get hungry easier, faster.. and i havent eaten since 11am.. when i had porridge..

think i shld stop wasting time and go back to staring at some alien paper. mebbe i'll discover tat not there are some not-so-alien parts.......

oh there's been one qn which has been bothering me for the past 2 days. too hungry to htink how to phrase it here...... mebbe i'll post it some other time when i'm less hungry. oh but not tonight......... no way.......*i hope*

ooooooooohhh feeling drowsy........

which is a good sign cuz it means tat i'm one step nearer to my goal. ie sleeping early.. hehe.. yeah i managed to start preparing to slp at 1230am yest.. even though in the end still din manage to really slp early (slept at ard 2 in the end, dunno wat i was doing from 1230 to 2 tho), was qte encouraged..

eh feeling really qte woozy now so forgive my lack of logic or watever.. realised i cld'nt think when i was attempting to do some dsa admin stuff jus now

anw juz to fill in the blanks, yest was sunday... nothing much happened except tat i went cell.. ok i cna juz hear luffter ald.. i dun mean tat me gg cell was hmm out of the ordinary, but rather, tat i learnt sthg from cell..

well basically it was th same old prob but juz tat in the this sunday's cell i learnt the consequences if my prob wasn't cured.. ie i'd become a false christian.. who are consumed by their own desires.. and do not seek God..

ok to all brothers and sisters in christ out there pls dun condemn me yet.. *james 4:11-12*.. i defend myself: i still do seek God.. juz tat not all the time.. and tat for 99% of the things i do, i do it not cuz of Jesus or God.. but for myself......arrgh.. terrible. *bleah*

and i dun wanna b false christian!!! so.. all i can do is juz to pray tat eventually i'll live the right way..so.. ahem. pls help ya?? hehehehe..

hmm i'm getting more and more awake.. which is bad.. wanna slp early leh..

ok now to today.. was qte good.. felt cheerful today.. also dunno y.. heh.. only thing was tat during the only lec which i attended (it was m285, skipped the earlier 2 lecs =p), i din noe wat was happening like 70% of the time.. i mean i really tried to listen.. but.. i'm sure all ntu pple out there can empathise with having a foreign lecturer.. nus pple too i'd think. yeah.. shan't say more.. can infer wat im' driving at, i'm sure.. heh..

ya for the rest of hte day it was qte good.. hehe got 13/15 for my econs quiz! well ok i noe tat isn't so great esp when you consider tat others did ard the same or even better..and tat hte quiz only consisted of 15 mcq qns.. but my econs have always sucked.. so its qte an encouragement for me ald k.. heh..

plus had dinner w my cousin today.. enjoyed the time w her.. din really chat bout deep stuff.. well.. its enough =)

hmm and walking back from hall 14 to hall 11 with her, memories came back to me........ memories of me gg back to hall 11 with rainne and zy after a night of studying......and another memory of us 2 with ty...... can juz smell hall 14's tv room.. where we studied the whole night.. can juz hear the fan whirring above my head.. some stuff... words juz can't describe fully.. but i guess you sorta get the idea...

memories are for us to keep.. and treasure.. cuz somethings.. once changed.. can't b restored.....

a lot of htings have changed....... things tat make me sad..and yearn for the past.. but.. wat can i do, but to embrace them?

sigh..........

*ay, a bit poetic hor =p*

shucks im' really getting awake now. think i better go liao.. before its too late! ya... no use thinking bout stuff liaoz.. heh.. i shld grinz and face all the new and wondrous stuff tats coming my way *watever they may b, heh*

=D

hmm enetation STILL hasnt replied my mail...........

test

hmm still cant comment.. y?? emailed enetation bout this prob 2 days ago.. still no reply from them.. another lousy site???




...i'm hungry...

boys and gals, dun drink milk when you're having gastric.. surprising advice.. but it came from a doc so it shld be accurate..

we all noe milk is a weak alkali, my guess is tat due to buffering effects, it will produce acid instead. so its a nono during gastric ya?? together with coffee, tea.. forgot wat else..

anw i'm not having gastric.. im not the one who was given this advice.. so no worries. heh.. (well ok i'm making assumptions =|) anw qte proud of the fact tat i've never once gotten gastric even though i've skipped umpteen meals.. =p

the reason y i'm doing so many tests, obviously, is cuz there's a prob with this blog. realised that if i change the timing to reflect singapore time, most prob the post's not gonna be published. at least, its not gonna b published soon. i mean i only saw the 2 blogs tat i did yest night the 2nd time tat i logged in today??? lousy site.


ok wat im gonna say is gg to be qte sensitive. here goes.

today teh holy spirit spoke to me.

hallelujah, i finally am not so blind to His presence.. it occurred htis morning the instant when i woke up. i heard "you've got to read the bible" immediately i realised tat i've hit the lowest point in my spiritual life nowadays. and tat i need to do sthg about it.. ya.. so tats wat i did.. after some more self-persuasion i managed to crawl out of bed to get the bible.. and this qt material i got from church last sunday..

so. the passage i read was bout jesus working on sabbath..to sum it up, the lessons were (good opp for me to revise, heh)
1) we muz leave aside a day to worship Him, to dwell in the Lord, whether it be sunday or saturday.. juz any day.. so for pple workign shifts, its possible to observe the commandment too.. heh
2) to help the poor/sick on sabbath, and not to treat it as a day juz for us to rest.. for the jesus is the Lord of teh sabbath, not us
3) we musn't 墨守成规.. (in case this doens't turn out, its mo4 shou3 cheng2 gui1, heh).. like we musn't do things juz cuz we muz, but rather shld always be mindful of why we do things.. like in this passage, jesus healed the sick on sabbath day even though traditional jewish customs forbid anyone to work on sabbath. this is cuz the purpose of sabbath is to let us set aside a day to rest in the Lord (refer to pt 1), and not to forbid us from working.. besides, as christians, one of the impt things we muz do is to heal the sick, help the poor.. ie love others (incl sick/poor) like we how we shld love jesus.." 'Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For i was hungry and you gave me somethign to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me somethign t drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you come to visit me'" -- Matt 25: 34-36

yepz.. tats bout it.. hmm hope i will have discipline to read the qte material again tmr.. this material is for the last 40 days before erm, good friday.. or easter not v sure =p was supposed to have one meal fast too..and donate the saved money to charity.. but.. erm.. shall see la huh..

was lying in bed when my mind wandered... (i always do the most htinking str after i wake up and still on my bed.. tats y i always 赖床.. hmm this one can guess i suppose?? heh).. then i tot bout some stuff.. then i realised, y shld i follow others? its best to be natural, to be me.. there's no point in deliberately following others..

anw... while i was lying on the bed.. i also tot about this blog.. realised tat alot of tots may go through our heads each day, but its only wat you're thinkign about when you're writing the blog tat gets recorded.. plus.. you may not wanna tell the whole world bout certain stuff too..... so.. wat gets blogged is actually not alot of htings.. hmm kinda wonder how this space will turn out in time to come.. will it b dead, empty, full of routine things.. or wat???

hehe.. its like close to 4am in the mornign.. im' juz writing gibberish.. heh..

btw.. think im gone case liao.. htis past week i've been slping at avg 5am..waking up at avg 4pm.. (got out of the bed at 6pm yest) hope i can turn back my bio clock when sch starts... otherwise i'll b missing lects again!~!~! the fact tat i din manage to catch up with my studies this past week din help lohz.. =|

hmm testing un, deux, trois.. quate, cinq, six aussi

test test test test test

the blog i did juz now isnt here.. izzit juz cuz the publishing is a bit slow??
pourquoi??? hope its not lost.. alors, mais ce n'est interresant pas. *shrugz*

hmm gotta go polish my french.. its getting rusty.. very rusty.. c'est dommage!~

wowz i have finally managed to change the "comments". hmm well for anyone-who's-reading-this's info, pirouettes means a series of quick and short spins in ballet jargon. hehe, pls dun be mistaken that i know ballet..(although tats wat i always wished for when i was a child) juz tat i came across this before ya?? i'm not so talented..

hmm qte tired after half a day of sending emails (yet again, i have been sending lots of emails each day for the past few days). heh, came online to settle my resume stuff and submit them, but ended up 6 emails, 4 of which i spent qte some time typing. so now, after being online for close to 6hours, i still havent touched my resume. i wonder y i'm so slow.. =|

i feel really busy nowadays..bz with the 2nd internal comp tat dsa's organising, taking care of pple's eca points, doing resume, and of cuz i've still got some catchign up to do in the acad area.. sighz.
it seems easy, juz 4 things to do, but each one of them takes up qte alot of effort and time k.. for the internal comp, i'm poking my nose into half of the work. (only 1 email tat i sent today was not for htis internal comp) partly cuz i juz want to, and partly cuz someone's not very good at doing his job, so i'm helping to do his on top of mine..................for the eca points, pple keep mailing to me saying tat they dun have points..(part of the many emails i sent these few days were to reply to them) but think fortunately the bulk of the problem pple shld be addressed by now.. and for the resume, its actually my comm skills proj.. spent alot of time in the preparation kz.. not to mention i've got to compile all the editing tat my groupmates have done.. and plus actually i had to do an application letter as well, but fortunately one of my groupmate got it covered for me. phew! but still i gotta do a memo.. not easy, i gotta use the right tone and language etc.. hope i dun spend too much time on it.. and finally of cuz i've also gotta catch up on my work, which i havent started at all! due to the above 3 things.. arrgh~ htink i've got a priority prob somewhere.......

sighz think i better get back to do my stuff ald.. =| think i'm gonna die when sch reopens........... SighZ~

this is sooooooo irritating

i juz spent dunno how many hours tryign to change the word "comment" into sthg more interesting

well i hope after i type this, after i click the publish button the stoopit correct word will appear.. instead of juz "comments". sigh.

sigh sigh sigh i still have so much work to do. tot i had cleared my work then suddenly my fren tells me no, you still have this and that. and the this and that will take qte some time i htink. as if i have so much time in the world, as if i dun hafta catch up on my studies.

oh well actually i shld't grumble.. i mean, i wasted so much time on this stoopit blog and i still complain i dun have enough time?? get real syl.

mebbe i shld juz relak, slp earlier tonight huh.. give my poor bod a rest. tmr pia again.. but that means i'll have EVEN lesser time to TRY to catch up on my work (TRY cuz i noe i sure wont b able to do it ald..)

really htink i'm hopeless but hmm someone juz gave me motivation.. to never give up.. so ya thx X! =)

surprising test results.. tot i'd be earth instead.. hmm


Your Element is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensitive, and mysterious. You
have friends who most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and raging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. Your beauty is inspiring and
magical.


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wow i have just spent 2 hours fiddling with the template of this blog. was supposed to be rushing my resume, but well, distractions just got the better of me you can say.

anw, qte proud of myself =) managed to change some parts of the template. ok, its juz a teeny weeny bit but considering that i noe nothing of the programming language that the author used in coming up with teh template, i'm ald qte good ald k. heez. i even managed to figure out how to put my email as a link.. cool eh?? hehe.

hmm i look forward to changing the music, and/or the picture. have tot of a way to do it, but would take qte some time.. so shall do it next time when im freer. =)

sigh htink tonight is another night where i'm gonna stay till 6.. but tonight is different cuz i'm ald qte tired.. whereas previously i'd still b raring to go at 5am.. but i've no choice, hafta do my resume.. its a overdue until cannot be overdue liao, have smsed my frens that i'll b late for 2 times?? qte ashamed of myself actually. cuz it juz shows how lacking i am in personal discipline. double sigh.

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okz. this blogging website is really qte confusing..

anw my performance was juz over on friday, really grateful for all who came to support me.. really glad they enjoyed the show, was afraid they wldnt.. cuz actually i tot it was really lousily done.. can tell from teh program booklet, there were so many typos and inconsistencies! and they could have at least made sure all the words could be seen..

and really glad dsa managed to pull through the perf despite the many probs tat plagued us.. we were really dis-united, and no one had enough initiative to come out and lead us. plus we also din noe to to do alot of steps.. we only started synchronising and figuring out how to do the steps together 2 weeks before teh concert loh.. although in teh end the perf was still not perfect, but i think to be able to synchronise most of the steps is ald good enough.. cuz after all dancesport is a couple dance in which each couple has their own style, not a mass dance in which everyone is so used to synchronisation.

hmm then on sat i slept till 4pm.. y?? cuz i slept at 6am the night before! (even though my performance was juz over???)someone insisted on resolving issues with me, and i cldn't juz walk out juz like tat right?? it wld seem like i'm avoiding the issue and thus admitting that i'm wrong?? ya.. so i spent the night resolving issues with him.. it was only then tat i realised that all the while he was bothered by our strained frenship.. and tat he was putting in a lot of efforts in trying to salvage it.. anw so ya the conclusion was tat i had no trust in him.. watever he says or do, i'll doubt his sincerity.. and throw back all sorts of denial, questions and doubts at him.. thus our very frequent quarrels over the net. which i realised to be true.. and which i realised stems from 1. our different attitudes to life 2. our different levels of tolerance to words.. err kinda hard to explain but i'm in a rush to finish the blog so cna't really spend time to think how to explain. heh

ya so on monday and tues i spent hte whole 2 days clearing eca backlog..i had eca points to take care of, plus remind everyone to start work for the 2nd dsa internal competitions. plus preparation for handover. oh ya and send email to sao to report some good news. actually it sounds qte little stuff to do hor.. i also dunno y i took so long leh..

so. on tues night (which is yest night) after i completed most of my online work i logged in to msn.. then we started talking.. at first was juz work stuff.. then later we started talkign bout the prob.. then we started argueing again.. arrgh.. but this time i was smarter.. kept my cool, and hehe now its only him who got 激动. hey i also can write chinese words here eh..hehe cool. anw yada yada, we managed to end off v nicely..we managed to clarify qte alot of things which happened in the past, but after this i realised that actually there're still much more things to clear.. it was becuz we kept guessing and assuming wat the other party tot, and jumping to the wrong conclusion, tat was y things turned sour.. anw this time we talked till 6am again.. but at least this time we cleared more stuff, and for more of the conv we were talking amiably, objectively. =)

aiyoz v late liao i muz go dance pract.. arrgh i havent started on my resume!!! and its due tmr.. i wonder how long i'll take to finish it..

hmm this blog sounds really detailed hor.. i think i'll b tryign fine tune my blogging style..

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